Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Reminder to urself sk!!! Change change change. At home who cares, but outside, in sch, at training, and anywhere else... Usui!!! hmmhmmm, change oneself to be better. Calm, serious, though smiling, and not cheerful. Reminder to self~

Ok, 2 more papers left to go, analog electronics and electrical principles. More hardcore and push myself in frisbee training. Reminder again, target that word on my shirt by this 3 yrs in poly! GO GO GO!

7:17 PM

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Well~ If the amt of sweat and tears shows the amt of hardwork a person puts in, that means i have no hardwork then? I really cant believe it. I know i did this grave stupid damn thing getting sky by a girl, but why cant u understand that i really cant burst there at all? Why cant u understand the amt of effort i have put in the 3 days training camp and compare it to those who was only capable of attending 1 or 2?

I have did my best and of course my job throughout everything today, including my best to manmark, i never poach and i even tried providing dumps for u. Lets put this person's name as Jane. She is not supposed to be in our area and i was looking for space for u to make a pass, she stayed there blocking the way, i ran behind u for the dump and u gave me the face. WTF? wat am i supposed to do? I'm the handler? hello~~~ Then in the end i got the face and attitude and Jane just got scot free from everything? ok fine... next.

I was at the sidelines with the senior, and we could even see soooooooooooooooo bloody hell clear that Jane let the person breakmark her, didnt get back in time for the defence and offence made the wrong cuts throughout every single game that we have played, but wtf? At the end of the briefing she shed tears cause she missed one of the darn disc which was supposed to score, then jane got the compliment, saying that she cried because of that one point she missed and showed that she did an excellent job. And me? I really sincerely put my head down to apologize to everyone, and i got such an attitude saying that i got sky by a girl and all? Is that the only thing u could ever think of from me? getting sky by a girl? Cant u see that i never made anymore mistakes out in the field like every single game? Cant u just acknoledge that?

Ok now i know wat i am supposed to do. Just fking keep my mouth shut even if i am not in the wrong, and train harder.

Sk, do well for urself, not to prove to them, but to myself. bye~

8:47 PM

Saturday, June 26, 2010

I seriously love the ending for Angel Beats... It was so touching~ Seeing Kanade and Otonashi, sigh... So weet... but it was really super sad, i couldnt have liked any other touching stories other than this.

Thursday's defeat is still in my mind. Feeling guilty, upset and all. Seeing the disappointment and the sadness on the seniors faces. I will not forget those expressions. They put in so much hard work into the games, the juniors and their hope of winning NPU was shattered just like that thanks to us yr 1s. I'm sorry seniors. I can't say anything, as i am in the wrong.

2:05 PM

Friday, June 25, 2010

^^ So happy ytd~ had a really nice dinner^^ hahaha bbq sting ray, satay, chicken wings, kangkong, hokkien mee~ Whoooooooooooooo haha^^ A nice meal after soooooooooo long lol... Damn happy^^ Then afterthat stayed over with daphne, chandra, gordon and joel at ralene's house ^^~ So cold sia haha nice place and i hope we have bbq next sat? haha^^

Omg... damn crazy now... Maths on Monday... Now no mood to study, tmr free to study for 3 subjects only and i have league against freakshow on sunday!!! ARGHHHHHHH LOL haha ok ok now i shall try to get my mood right first^^ bye guys^^

6:54 PM

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Why are some people treating me this way? I'm just trying to be friendly to everyone. :( If not, then u guys think i should be quiet and let things flow just like this? hmmm... Finally got throught that thing and now feeling a little happy. Then now this, i'm not really sure wat to do. If i go back to previous i will be ignored by... oh well...Think think think... wat to do!!! omg... haha~ but after writing this here. I would have forgotten about it in a week's time... For this my blog = partially my diary. Bye guys~ I shall take my time to think through on wat to do for a while... Is it not good to talk things seriously? hmmm

2:49 PM

Saturday, June 19, 2010

*YAWN* So completely bored to the max today -.- Anw was not very happy abt the competition on sunday even though i scored, but ya, must go for even more trainings since i am only this *little* strong-.- Stupid knee-.- Sprained at the wrong time-.- RAWRRRRRR Luckily game has been changed to thursday, but then thursday night also got PT sia~ how to go!?!?!? then plus my knee in this condition! DAMN IT! I praying that things are going well here~ please please please~ Hope u are not mad with me ba~ :( Ok SK NOW JIAYOU! Wish myself goodluck liao~ ^^ haha U! please dun get angry with me:( if not i die liao:(

12:21 AM

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Whoo~ Feeling better now^^ hahaha, at least things were clarrified and now back to normal~ Lucky... I thought i lost it for good and got blacklisted~ Celebrate!!! WHOOHOO~~~ with a BOTTLE MAN! HAHAHAHAHAHA of sprite~ LOL LAMEEEEEEEEE hahahahahahahahaha ^^ ok guys~ Summer league (frisbee competition) starts this sunday! JIAYOU!!!!! ^^

11:32 PM

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Hmm... I'm feeling so damn tired from everything now. My body is taking alot now and i hope it can take more... Jia you sk jiayou! 3 more weeks... I shall join in the PT in frisbee... For now, my own conditioning first till i am ready...

hmmm... I am really wishing that i would not be treated like a stranger now. Now everything i do is alone alone and alone... Am i really going to be alone throughout? hmmm people say they will care, but in the end, it is still forgotten and treat me like i am some other extra person in their life... Typical isnt it? hmmm... ok for now... Concentrate sk concentrate... If theres someone that can ever support me... I am more than delighted thanks to them. bye guys^^

11:36 PM


hmmm... Really feeling so ultra down right now :(... Sigh... Why is it so hard to put it on my face? And why when i try, yet i get that reaction? Cant it be like ytd, when being alone can have more smiles than wat i see today? hmmm... Tmr basketball training again at pasir ris. Can i go home with u again? I wonder. Nvm... Lets just see wat will happen tmr then. Goodnights

1:34 AM