K now is the post on today's prom night^^ hahaha...

Went to Bishan to collect my trousers at 11am and then headed down to Wei Qi's place after that... Had lunch, watched an episode of Naruto, and then went to his room to take a look at his prom clothes... Then Keith arrived at 1 plus, we played Dai Di together till Wei Qi needed to go bring Adrian from the bus stop due to the rain... Then Adrian and Keith had their meal, and then we started changing into our prom clothes^^ hahaha... Shan Shan arrived around 3 and wow, nice appearence wor^^ hahaha... Blusher is too thick though... hahaha^^ Then as we changed in to our prom clothes in Wei Qi's room, we styled and even helped out with each other's hair and everything... hahaha^^ Then Wei Qi's dad lent us his perfume, and all of us had the strong smell... hahaha^^Then all of us took pictures at his house, in group, plus individual as well^^ hahaha... Then left at 4.10pm to school...

Arrived in school, and we went to register and everything... I think our group was the most well dressed one in the whole school la-.- The rest like, anyhow casual wear for the prom-.- Anyway, took even more pics in school and everything... Will post up the pics as soon as Adrian puts it up-.- So slow!!! hahaha^^ jokn^^ That night, the whole thing was actually quote bored and everything, but the fun part was when Adrian and i was dancing to the music of Sorry Sorry by Super Junior... Damn cool la!!! hahaha^^ Then, Adrian, Farhan, Keith and i were like standing together and dancing to the Sorry Sorry, and then Wei Qi tried learning as well^^ hahaha... That song was seriusly damn cool!!! hahaha^^ Then we also Tau Pok Ming xiang and another guy at the hall and everything... Was super funny!!! hahaha^^ Then overall, the thing was still ok ba... Cause the food was seriously not very good-.- The activities were like...-.-... Only the dancing part man!!! hahaha^^ Should go learn the full dance of Sorry Sorry la... hahaha^^

Then went to Starbucks at Compasspoint after the prom and chatted and everything... Continued to take even more pictures there as well!!! hahaha^^ Tried on Shan Shan's scaf, and Pei Wen wore Wei Qi's blazer, and Wei Qi wore her shawl... Then took pictures again^^ hahahaha!!! I think we should go out more often la^^ hahaha... But nowadays, very tired already... Time packed this past 2 weeks, very little time to rest and everything... hahaha^^

Then we all left Starbucks at around 10.30pm... Adrian, Yi Feng and Keith went home... Shan Shan, Wei Qi and I sent Pei Wen home by taxi and then proceeded to Wei Qi's house to collect out things, before sending Shan Shan home by taxi... U ar... Must learn to be more polite and use ur manners more often ya? hahaha... Lucky got teach u-.- If not, i think the taxi driver will think that u are bossy la! hahaha^^ no la... jokn... U wear until so nice, of course, manners must be there right? hahaha^^ Then after sending Shan Shan home, cabbed home from there as well... Reached home... Damn tired... hahaha^^

~Kk, gonna pack my things tomorrow for my Hong Kong trip on Sunday... Though my trip was changed to 3 days due to some things, never mind, gonna go again to Hong Kong as promised by my mum during my next holidays^^ hahaha... K, basketball shoes for me... Something gotta do with Mickey Mouse for Shan Shan... Pei wen's present... Another friend's present... Carter's basketball shoes as well... What else should i buy? Gonna think tmr... hahaha^^ Then flight would be at Monday morning... till then, contact me if u can, if not, have to wait till the 26th, when we go out to celebrate Pei Wen's birthday together^^ hahaha... Goodnight everybody!!! hahaha^^ Going to go sleep soon^^ hahahaha!!!

OK ok... Gonna blog on 2 things today... First would be the chalet, then after that, it would be on the prom^^ hahaha...

Day 1:
Woke up at 6.36 am thanks to apple[ wei qi's dog]-.- Who was sleeping beside me and banged me-.- Then never mind, it took me 30mins to go back to sleep again-.- Then woke up at 8.30am and wei qi was watching his One Piece-.- Then his dad prepared breakfast, we had a heavy breakfast, then went down to Compasspoint to meet Pei Wen as Wei Qi and i needed to get the fruits and Wei Qi needed to get the bacon... When was at Cold Storage, wanted to buy hair dye de lo-.- Stupid Wei Qi-.- Ask me dun buy the hair dye till after prom-.- Never mind... Then after getting back to his house to pack and leave, went over to Shenton way to get the 36kg of ice before going to the chalet^^ hahaha... Had Zi char for dinner at the Pasir Ris Park and then headed back to the chalet... Shared a room with Farhan, Zilin, Yi Feng and Jun Jie that night... 2nd day that i had the leg weights on...

Day 2:
Woke up in the morning, and played mahjong before going to Orchard from the chalet, as i needed to go for my changing of braces... Then headed back to the chalet and rested with Farhan and Zilin in the room before the bbq^^ hahaha... The bbq, i cheong the chicken wing like mad la^^ hahaha... the chicken wing i cook nice right Yi Feng? hahaha^^ ok ok... then at night, watched Coming soon downstairs in the living room, with Farhan, Hao Siong, Zilin, Adrian and Yi Feng... hahaha^^ Damn cool la! Zilin kena scared by me how many times ar? let me think... Uncountable? hahaha^^ 3rd day that i had the leg weights on...

Day 3:
Woke up at 11 plus, and started playing the music on my laptop as Zilin and farhan were already half awake... hahaha... Then the stupid Yi Feng-.- Moment he step into the room come and hug me-.- asshole!!! hahaha^^ then shan shan also another crazy one-.- Then in the afternoon, played mahjong the bloody hell whole day from afternoon till night, stupid shan shan-.- Say that her hand suay because everytime touch my mahjong tiles, dun believe me right at first? u see in the end wat happen? i lost la... but lucky i won back some at the back, so my loss wasnt that big... hahaha^^ Adrian lost the most la... 15dollars plus... wth... Stupid Shan-.- Next time we will have our revenge... hahaha^^ Then we had dinner at roughly around 9 plus 10 as we had to wait for the ingredients to be bought for our dinner... hahaha... as Ming Xiang bought the wrong type of rice-.- In the end that night, watched CSI Las Vegas till 3am, then Farhan, Zilin, Carter and i cleared the things downstairs and helped everyone pack up the things so that the next day check out will be easier... in the end, slept at around 4am... 4th day with the leg weights...

Day 4:
Woke up at 9am de, but was so tired, so decided to sleep longer, in the end, at 10am, Keith, Farhan and Adrian needed to pull me off the bed to wake me up... They spent 40-45 mins just trying to get me off the bed as i struggled like crazy, they pulled my leg, pull my hand, took off the mattress, tau pok me and everything, but in the end i was still on the bed, hahaha^^ is i get off myself de lo in the end... hahaha^^ K then after checking out, went with Keith, Litin and carter to Whitesands to have our lunvh at Ananas Cafe before going to Litin's house to play manopoly and then play basketball before going home... In the end, yesterday i was so tired that i used my com halfway, and i fell asleep... 5th day with the weights on...

~Well, the end of the chalet's post... Next up would be on today's prom night... But ya, chalet was fun, though i really missed......... aiya... never mind... i enjoyed it anyway, talked to Zilin and Farhan damn lots of times and ya, could put my mind off the thing when i was really having fun with them all. I love to stay with my friends. Though i will miss u guys after we all graduate, i really wish to stay in contact with u guys...

OK ok... just reached home at around 9 40 just now... OMG... damn tired-.- Anyway, chalet, ya i enjoyed it quite a lot^^ Especially the times when i was talking and chatting with them^^ hahaha... Shared a room with Yi Feng, Zilin and Farhan^^hahaha... So nice and comfortable la^^ hahaha... 1st night, slept with the 3 of them plus Jun Jie... 2nd and 3rd night had alot more space^^ Cause Jun Jie and Yi Feng didnt stay over night, so Farhan, Zilin and i shared 1 room lo... hahaha^^ Anyways... shall give all the details tmr^^ hahaha...

~Well, wore the leg weights for 5 days continuously already, blister was open again, and my heel got a huge blue black thanks to Yi Feng-.- Thanks to some of my friends that even bothered talking and chatting with me^^ At least u guys had the heart to do so^^ Not only when u are bored, hahaha... But u guys at least now when i am feeling down... Ya, alright, gonna go sleep soon, very sleepy... Have been out the whole day even after the chalet ended... Goodnights^^

Very disappointed... :(

Now over at Wei Qi's house, and gonna stay overnight at his place... Tmr is gonna be the start of the chalet and i am quite tired and sleepy now-.- Went out with my step father, carmen, Delcia, brother and maid today... Went over to Ang Mo Kio and walk walk... Went to bring Carmen to SPADES and MESSY to get her pants for the Hong Kong holiday... Lucky got me around right carmen? hahaha^^ If not u'll be wearing the buy3 get 1 free de right now... hahaha... Anyways, had dinner at Serangoon and went home at around 7 plus to pack my bags before heading here to Wei Qi's house...



Had a average day today, was seriously moody, but Carmen and Delcia managed to brighten things up a little by talking non-stop-.- hahaha^^ no la, jokn jokn^^ Was still thinking about it... Sian... Damn damn damn suay-.- Handphone damn cold today... completely never vibrated or ring throughout the whole afternoon-.- Well, now than started ringing thanks to a friend of mine^^ Past few days thanks to her, i can brighten things up a little, but never mind...



~Well, gonna continue blasting my music in Wei Qi's room now... Gonna continue... Gonna wake up early tmr around 9am... Going with Wei Qi to Compasspoint to get some food items tmr... Ok ok... Nights guys...
Sigh............................................ Damn sad:(

Sigh... so many things to think about today-.- Supposed to have a basketball match with the Punggol players today, but it seems like they put aeroplane... No point in playing with them anyway, they already lost to us twice-.- Anyway, last minute had a change in plan from staying at home to go play basketball, as Litin asked whether wanted to play basketball... So went down to SengKang to meet Litin and Carter to play basketball...

Sigh... Is u ask me not to go fetch u de lo yesterday:( So when u said that, of course i dun go la:( I wanted to go over today de, yesterday u asked me to go over, i was like ok ok... and thinking what time to go meet u de lo... But u said i dun need to go over liao, so i neva go... Was even planning to stay at home the whole day today, is last minute then go play basketball de-.- Why u angry for sia, cause i was like... U got the hot guy to talk to mah... so i said ok wat...

Anyway, had some of my new friends texting me and everything, at least got others to pei me when i unhappy or wat, and in the end i also kena disturbed-.- Idiot... Nvm... Had another blister under my leg, thanks to Carter-.- I change into my shirt and slippers, then want me train u... In the end, left the court at 10.48pm... Was already worn out with the continuous 1 on 1 with Carter and his friend Wei Wen, continuously more than 10 games in a row-.- Bloody hell-.-

~Well... I'm not sure why u are angry with me... But i just wanted to say... I can really take ur words quite seriously de... Cause... Aiya, i dun have to say it out la. Ya... Well, nights everybody!!!

Sigh... damn bored today... Woke up at 3pm in the afternoon, and was using the com all the way till 6.30pm... Was completely just stoning the whole afternoon as it rained continuously... Thinking of something for the whole day... ya... Then still couldn't stop thinking.. Hmm... Then went over to Pasir Ris today, as it was my grandmother's birthday, so went over and had a heavy dinner^^ Then after i had eaten, went down to the short basketball court and played around with my step sis and step bro... bloody hell can pull ring, then he say cannot-.- hahahahahahahah!!!

Then reached home around 9.45pm and then used my com again... Sigh... Just thought and thought... Well... Couldn't do anything but sigh... talked to some of my friends on MSN and were talking abt the thing-.- Then my old primary sch popped up again, she say want to go out with me, but cant la... Busy for 2 whole weeks-.- hahaha... Anyway... tmr might not even have the match-.- stupid punggol players... Scared of playing say la, dun put areoplane. we wait for u to get thrashed only-.-

~Anyway... Mood totally spoilt today, thanks to u... Well, gonna remain home the whole day tmr i guess. Not going out, not going anywhere. Just home. No more. Nights. I have nothing else to say.

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Wow^^ Had quite much fun today even though my leg hurt because of the stupid blisters-.- Well, at least it didnt hurt that much compared to yesterday... hahaha...

Kk, today woke up at 10.30am, as was going to meet Adrian, Wei Qi, Jun Jie, Yi feng and Shan Shan at Ang Mo Kio Hub... So met up with Shan Shan at Serangoon Mrt... She was late though... hahaha... Then when we reached the circle line at Bishan, Wei Qi called and then met up at the Mrt... Then met up with Adrian and Jun Jie at Ang Mo Kio hub, and we went over to SPADES shop and Adrian and Jun Jie bought their white jeans^^ Soon after, Yi Feng arrived, and then he bought the white jeans as well^^ Then proceeding to the MESSY shop next to it to get Yi Feng and Jun Jie's blazer... Same as Adrian de la... hahaha... Then after a while, we MRTed all the way to Bugis, and then continued with our walking spree... hahaha^^ Went over to the other MESSY shop over at Bugis, and then bought ties and everything... Walked around 77th street, went to Bugis street, and then we had Yoshinoya^^ hahaha...

At around 5, we caught a movie called paranormal activity^^ The starting is like damn freaking retarded-.- the camera keep on moving about la-.- Then Shan Shan was like saying, so boring so boring... In the end, she kena freaked out like mad la!? still say boring, but i find the show quite lame la-.- hahaha, the movie in the end is fictitious de-.- Then after that, met up with Pei Wen and Sheree as they watched a different movie from ours... Then went over to find Stupid Alien and her friend... Then after that, Adrian, Wei Qi, Yi Feng, Jun Jie, Shan Shan, Pei Wen, Sheree and i went over to the Kopitiam which was opposite the Cathay Cineplex...

I was like damn Xin Fu la^^ hahaha... Cause we were sitting in tables of 4s mah... Then i was sitting with Adrian, Yi Feng and Shan Shan on one table, and the rest at the other... I finished my dinner way before the rest mah, then they all treat me so nice la^^ hahaha!!! Shan Shan feed me Fish, potato and fries, Adrian feed me with Grilled Chicken, and Yi Feng also feed me with Fish^^ Hahaha^^ Yea!!! So happy la!!! hahaha^^ Then we chatted and chatted at our tables, talking about the chalet and prom night^^ Can't wait to go over to the prom together with Adrian, Wei Qi, Jun Jie and Yi Feng^^

Wei Qi and i would be wearing black for both the pants and our overalls^^ He would be wearing red tie, and i would be wearing a silver one^^ hahaha... Adrian, Jun Jie and Yi feng will in fact be wearing nearly the same for everything... hahaha, The blazers will be Grey, their jeans white and their shirts in side are also white... hahaha... Cartoon right our clique? hahaha^^ Well, think we might be going over to Jeffrey's to make our hair before going to our prom^^ Stupid la our school-.- Hold prom night in school-.- Damn Xia Suay la-.-

LOL!!! Then while on the way home... we all boarded the MRT at Somerset, and Wei Qi kay kiang... go walk slow slow, then nearly got kiap by the doors-.- Lucky Pei Wen's reaction was fast la, pulled him in time, but the clothes were unlucky... hahaha, the bags kena kiap, then we had to pull the things in... hahaha^^ Joke la!!! hehehe^^

~Well, i am already quite happy for the past few days^^ hahaha, yesterday and today, seems like everything are going towards the positive side of my life now^^ My friends that i have made, they are all treating me damn nice and i am very happy just by having this simple things. In fact, so long as all of us have fun, I am happy enough^^ GOODNIGHTS EVERYBODY!!!

OMG... damn tired-.- Went to Pasir Ris to play basketball just now... In the end, no training-.- Cause they wanted to see how much i have improved... Looks like comments received were positively given^^ hahaha, but my blister HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, just now talked for a very long time with a new friend, ya, and looks like we stay near each other la... Omg-.- Anyway, not gonna post much... Cause i am like damn tired now... hahaha... Gonna go out with the rest tmr^^

~Nights all!!! I am quite happy now^^

Omg... today was like damn freaking tired already:( Had o level chinese in the morning, and had to wake up at 545am-.- then after the paper, Alien called to ask to meet at the bus stop there as she wanted to talk about the exam as well... So soon after i rushed all the way homw as i was going to Litin's basketball court there to play basketball again... Omg... play for like 5 days in a row already... Tmr will be the 6th-.- So tired... thurs going out with wei qi and adrian to walk walk, then friday playing ball again-.- saturday will be the match, so playing ball yet again... ARGH!!! I want to die liao-.- so long neva play till so mad le... hahaha

Anyway, Alien went out with her friend Valene to Bugis today... Stupid Valene-.- Call me Mole-.- Want die ar!!! hahaha^^ no la, Jokn^^ hahahahahahahahaha!!! ANyway, Alien came over to find us at the court at around 7 plus, and she was like playing basketball with us!? HUH??? Weird right? hahaha, she has been like exercising for the past few days la... hahaha, today we even plyed a 2V.S2 match against Carter and a Philipino la!!! Guess wat? We won!!! hahaha^^ 11-5, we thrashed them!!! Yea!!! hahaha... walao... unbelievable right? she was even the one that scored the last ball la-.- Walao... hahaha... Even worse-.- After palying, still wear my spare shirt that i wanted to change into de after playing-.- Next time u want i bring extra shirt la... hahaha^^ Never mind... Better than her, wearing her u know wat and play-.- BABO!!! Do stupid things only la!!! Bully me for wat-.- Michosyo!!!

Anyway, i hope that by playing around just now, u released some anger or emotions through it already^^ hahaha, anything can just ask me or say it out, hahaha^^ Like the other day, u can easily forget the unwanted things by doing things positively^^ hahaha, the other day was talking about the Ms LO-.- Then today is play basketball^^ hahaha, u feeling better? anything can just let me know ya? hahaha^^

~Ok ok... nights everybody!!! Hong Kong trip is nearing soon... Thinking of wat to buy now-.- hmm... shoes... wat else... OH YA!!! Stupid alien! u said u wanted the bag right? u still havent told me which brand and type yet-.- If i dunno, how i buy-.- hahaha!!! Stupid! Ok ok, tmr last paper and i am... FREE!!! hahaha^^

Yo! Yo!!! I'm home!!! hahaha^^ Looks like everything went quite exciting for me today^^ Lost to a bunch of pros today, but we never got thrashing, can really laugh le... hahaha, but in the end, we were all quite happy though we lost, as the opponent, 1 of them can nearly dunk-.- Which was like Wtf-.-

WhooHoo!!! Carter finally learnt the shooting position after a personal 1 to 1 coaching by me at the basketball court-.- It took him 1hour plus to get the final postion right, and unknowingly, chopped 6, 2 pointers in a row while i was adjusting his shooting position. hahaha^^ Thanks Carter for the texts^^ At least i know that i am appreciated^^ hahaha!!! The rest is up to urself now... Only after u have so called perfected it, will i continue with ur next individual training^^ So till then, u have to do things urself ya? hahaha^^

~Well, there's o level chinese tmr, and so i have to go to sleep soon...Goodluck to all having their chinese paper tmr!!! After that would be the MCQ, and we are FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha^^ Ok ok, anything remember to tell me ya^^ I am always ur prob solver, rmb that ok? hahaha^^ Night night^^

Well... Woke up at 11.30am thanks to some stupid alien doing her experiments by waking me up-.- hahaha, anyway... Had to rush throught 3 mouthfuls of rice and shower before actually heading out with family to Ang mo kio... They totally never tell me that they wanted to go out la. So i was like rush rush rush!!! In the end, had 3 mouths of rice as my lunch, and then had to rush over to stupid alien's house to accompany her-.- Anyway, fell asleep while was on her bed, and she was watching youtube... hahaha...

Then waited for her to shower and we went over to meet Carter at Litin's house the basketball court there... Then Wei Qi came over as well after that... hahaha^^ Bloody hell damn lot of strong players today-.- I LOVE IT!!! hahahaha!!! I havent had this much fun with strong players for a long long time... i really am excited when people who are damn strong plays with me... I dunno why, but i get really excited^^ hahaha!!! Anyways... She met up with Adrian Tan and her friends at the court there and everything, they chatted and her friends left soon after... Dun worry jacq... I know u are not... Since adrian tan has changed, u just dun be bothered ya?

Kk, had to head all the way back home by taxi, as i missed my last train.. sigh... Bloody hell got scolded... I reached home well before 12 o'clock la!!! Wth... Carmen, u see ar, sometimes u outside at around 12plus 1, ur father will still go out and fetch u by car right? Me lei? I was trying to call both my mum and my step father as i already missed the train, so i was like going to ask them for permission... But in the end... Mum say she sleeping, dun want to answer the phone. Step father say he DUN WANT to answer the phone... In the end, i was like scolding my maid over the phone la-.- haix... Never mind... I call carmen to pass me the taxi fare's money when i reached home, my step father dun let her... Wat's ur prob sia seriously!!! Its like, damn irritating la... U dun want me to come home is it? Say earlier la! I still have my friends u know?Its like wtf... Ur daughter want to help me, u even asked her not to help my staying at the living room. WTF!? Then in the end, i had to bloody hell wake my mum up after reaching home, just to get the money from her... Damn pai sei la! Make the taxi driver wait outside my house-.- Bloody hell... U wait... retribution will surely befall u one day-.-

~Well... Had a long chat with Louis and another good friend just now^^ hahaha... Thanks guys... Louis, Jia you!!! and my secret good friend... I wanna thank u as well! cause its like... ya... U should know... hahaha^^ Not going to bother about my step anymore... He bloody hell give me attitude right? ok... u wait... Anyways... there was this stupid Malaysian girl whom added me in facebook, and talked to me on MSN la... saying wanted to make friends... I was like... o...k... hahaha... Then in the end... she wanted to webcam and show see how i look like-.- In the end, i think she is like really kena langa by the SBS bus from singapore la... hahaha, well neva mind... Just make friends only... I also neva say cannot make friends right? hahaha... Well, nights everybody!!! Basketball again TMR!!! hahaha^^

Oh ya!!! Basketball training for EAGLES YOUTH on wednesday... have to go back to Pasir Ris on wednesday for training!!! hahaha, as there is a match between Punggol sec against us on Sat... My ex vice-capt, wants me to go back for training on wednesday^^ hahhaha!!! Of course i will^^ EAGLES YOUTH, lets go!!! hahaha^^ But i also dun get the point of the match on sat la... they already lost to us twice... Yet they chio us play again? Are we really that strong??? Oh well... shall find out on sat then^^ hahaha...

Haven't eaten since 12pm... Lunch till now not eaten:( Damn hungry... sigh... I want EAT!!! T_T

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Well, just finished showering and everything... Damn tired right now-.- Leg plus stomach cramped like mad just now... neva had such a bad injury for quite a long time already-.- Well, played with the Philippinoes today... Some were rather outstanding, others were bullshit... hahaha... Anyway, went over to Litin's court there to meet Carter as he passed me the basketball at 2pm, then he left to TP to watch Hao and the rest play basketball... Playing under the freaking hot sun la-.- Now my skin can seriously see a different colour compared to my body... WTF, when i went to shower just now, could actually see that my shoulder all the way to my fingers, were damn dark...

Well, i am not going to bother about Chinese and the MCQ paper anymore. Shall play basketball on Monday. Have to teach Carter and the rest about positioning already... Ya, ok ok... think i might sleep late today... Hahaha, stupid Zilin-.- Anyhow say me... Go die la!!! hahaha^^ Anyway, Nights guys^^ Yea yea yea!!!

Had bio paper today at 230... The section B was my ace man^^ hahaha^^ Yea yea yea!!! Anyway, now there are only 3 papers left^^ Chinese paper 1 and 2, plus MCQ for our science^^, then after that, bye bye o level!!! WOOHOO!!! hahaha^^ Anyway... I might be playing basketball tmr with Keith and Litin, cause they asked me over... Well... I won't play too much^^ so i hope that u will not worry^^ hahaha...

Kk, anyway, went over to Jeffrey's to cut hair after our paper^^ Adrian, Wei Qi, Pei Wen and i, we went over... then as i finished my hair cut, Wei Qi compliment me wor^^ hahaha^^ Thanks bro!!! Yea^^ Well, Wei Qi and Adrian had a hair cut as well and Pei Wen went to rebond her hair... I dunno how they looked like, as i had to go off back home as i had to go with my family to the Singapore Swimming Club to have dinner... Well, had the usual food and everything at the restaurant, and then went over to the step's place to have Ice-Cream cake^^ hahaha... Mmmm... Delicious strawberry ice-cream cake^^ hahaha...

~Well, will be going to sleep soon^^ I hope that, whatever i havr thought through is a good choice... ya... hahaha, well... U are not dumb... Hurting people, well, i dun mind and i dun care how it feels... U dun have to feel scared at all!? Trust me, get hurt? Me? hahaha, well... U haven't really asked ur friends around u about me haven't u? In fact, i'm not right now, and i would not be. Even if i feel it, i would never let it out... Ya... Well, yes its in my mind, something that is... Want to know wat it is in my mind? hahaha^^ Wait till u really have thought about wat i have done... U might find out... hahaha^^U want me to listen to u on that? No way, that is something i will never ever listen to u abt, so no, i won't get out... U should by now know wat i mean... If not, well... I just want to say... Yes it is too late, as i have already did... In fact from the first time u've known... All the way, till right now... Nights^^

Well, very tired right now... Last night slept at 1 plus and then had to wake up this morning at 545... Was very sleepy though... Ya, so went to sch to have O level POA today... Paper 2 was alright, but i think my paper 1 was done very badly ba... But overall, i think i did alright... In fact, is i hope that i did alright-.- Anyway, was quite in a not bad mood today, but after reading what shan shan showed me, i was... Nth to say. I really really have nth to say. My face totally changed when i saw the thing... Its like, why am i still doing it?Knowing that it is not beneficial, yet i still continue... Why?

Finished watching D.Gray man, was not bad... But distracted now as i am still very bothered. In fact irritated. Ya, well there's O level biology tmr, so all the more sian, as going to take time again-.-

dead dead dead, cannot take it too much. There are times when walking away seemed the best option... but i will never walk away. In fact, I'll... well neva mind. Some things are best not said. As i know u will be reading, so all the more i can't say things... Ya... Anyway, have been trying to find my real goal for now. Can't seem to get many things straight. Erm... well looks like i will just not be bothered abt *****? Nah, how to? Now got this one, already want to vomit blood le-.- Sigh... Nvm. Goodnight guys...

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Well, lets just say that this thing i am unable to let u know. As this so called problem actually isnt a problem, but something else which i cannot say. I know u are concerned about me, i am already happy enough that u concern me. I dun expect more from u, as i know it is not nice to always expecting things. Dun worry, i am not always waiting for u to talk to me, as i know how to keep myself occupied at times if u are busy. Ya, i might be waiting for calls or texts, but it doesnt mean that u are free all the time. I myself can understand that, thats why i enjoy spending time even if i am alone^^

Thanks for offering urself when i need someone. Well, its just that... I cannot share some things with u, as for me to share my so called "secret" with u, nah... ya i know that u care after reading ur msg, and i believe that u are a nice person, to me. To others, i dun care wat kind of view do they see things or look at u. I myself have my own view of u, and i believe u are special. I am not really irritated about u joking with me just now. But in fact while thinking about the "secret", u said somethings that actually, if others were to say it, i wouldn't care, but it is sensitive if it came out from u.

Sensing that i am weird, yes its true i am weird these few days. But ya, there is a reason for doing so. After knowing some people's choices and decisions, and hearing many stories here and there, i am quite bothered. But all i can say is, whenever u are around, i'll try to make u smile. I dun care if others have any hatred or negative views abt u. I will always stand at one side, waiting only when u feel like looking for me. As i know, i am only like Zilin and Valene.

~Well, making a great impact in ur life? I did? Well, i dun think so. In fact i neva brought much difference to ur life ba? Ya, i think the most is, when u are bored, u have another friend to talk to. When u have problems, u have me to discuss. I know i know... Nothing more. I know... So neva mind. I can understnad, but ya, always awaiting, until someone else takes the place. But i doubt that the place would be removed, as it might take forever.

Well, last night talked to some of my friends till 2 plus in the morning, before continuing with my D.Gray Man till 4am in the morning. Then after that woke up at 9am in the morning and got ready to go to sch... Met Keith at 11am at the sch canteen and we talked about some things that we did last time...

Ya then, soon after we had our geography O level paper at 2pm, and we finished at 330... The paper was relatively alright, as the questions on rivers and development were ok for me to handle. Then went home and continued with D.Gray man again, till now...

I dunno is it me or wat... but i seem to have given a great thought, from yesterday till now, but the prob is, i dunno wat to do... Well... I hope i can find the answer to my own question soon... Nights guys^^

Well, just got home and everything, had a long long time to think through abt some things... Seems like i have been blind and everything as told by my firends and all. But well, i wont put it to heart, as in order to do something that i really want, i have to sacrifice somethings. Even if myself if i have to. I really cannot believe it when i heard about the thing. It seems like i am only a person for accompanying others, but not the opposite. Well, i am seriously unsure what i have to do. As i dun want to do it. U know right keith? Litin? but its just that i myself dun want to. I really dun want to do it. Can't change my heart ba... Ya... Well, i just hope that u guys can ignore about my feelings, but accept me as a person who doesn't get angry, upset or cry anymore. As i wouldn't show that to others anymore. Sad, well ya, i will feel sad and everything, but i will not show it to u guys anymore, so u guys can dun bother about my feelings. U guys want to scold me, shoot me, i let u do so. I wont show that i am angry, irritated or anything. But please, try to understand what i am doing this for? Well, i dun care what the person thinks, but i will just continue holding on to my rope and letting things be, so ya, dun have to think about how i feel.

Well, went to play basketball at Litin's court today, and i was like damn tired. cause the 2 crazy idiots wanted to play 2 vs 1 full court with me, so it was like Keith and Litin against me, playing full court-.- Tired after the score reached 7 to 1 as i was leading. But in the end i lost by 1 point. 15 to 14-.- Damn exhausted, i admit, i lost le. My physical endurance sucks-.- Then Jacq finished her Art O level exam and then met up to have dinner together at Compass. carter, felicia and Jacq. Then we talked for like 15mins, before going back. In the end... I got the face that i was expecting:( Well... I guess i am not a good friend eh? I try to make everyone happy, but in the end... None of them are:( What to do? Will somebody really help me? I am already half dead right now. I cannot understand why, and i think i never will.

~Well, i just want to say again. I am not going to reveal my true emotions to anyone any longer, provided i really receive the treatment i deserve. If not, even if u guys are worried, or upset because of me, i will only smile. Nothing more, ya. Alright goodnight guys... I'll just stand at 1 side then. Since i am really not needed around. I dun want to wate my efforts for now. I want to do things my way now. I am just a someone to look for when others are bored. U might think its not, but its because of something, thats why i am having such a thought...

Well, last night i tried to sleep, in the end i slept at 2 plus and woke up at 545am... hahaha, wow, i am like damn tired now...Zzz... Feel like sleeping, and yet i dun feel like sleeping... Must be thinking that i am weird huh? Well, anyway, Social studies O level and Chemistry O level papers today... Then in between, we went over to Copasspoint's Macdonalds and the food on our table was like free flow la-.- walao... Wei Qi, Adrian, Keith, Yi Feng and Pei wen were there and its like we took turns buying food and exchanging labels and talk talk talk... Hahaha...

Then after my papers, i stayed at home the whole day today and used my laptop and started watching D.Gray Man... and watch watch watch... Damn bored la at home-.- Walao... In the end i like feeling so sleepy right now la-.- Well anyway, i will be going over to Litin's basketball court there tmr and i was given permission^^ hahaha, Thanks^^ hehehe... well, some stupid idiot talking on the phone plus webcam now... hahaha, damn wu liao right now... hahahahahahaha!!!
Well, think i'll sleep early today, as i slept for like 3 hours only last night la-.- walao... hahaha...

~Kk night guys^^ I will be observing, so i hope u stop ur pride and start learning to be different and everything from now. so ya, goodnight^^ Going to have a busy weekend i guess... hahaha...

Omg, looks like Hong Kong's trip, Delcia would be going as well-.- Walao... Want die liao la... Sian -.-Ya, my step sis's friend is coming along with us, cause she paying for the air ticket herself and everything, so she will be going also-.- Sian la, so going to get bullied!!!!!!!!!!! NO!!!! ARGH!!!
Well, anyway, i still not sure whether i am really looking forward to the Hong Kong trip, but i hope that, i will have both an enjoyable time before the trip, and during the trip. Ya, well, i not sure though. So i'll just have to leave everything at 1 side, since nobody is really bothered about my real self, ok, i'll use only smiles, no more. Ya.

~Ok ok, O level tmr, now on Msn with Carmen and Delcia, going sleep soon, nights^^

well, today my mum woke me up at 11.30am just to say that we are going to Bishan Junction 8. So she wanted me to quickly shower and have lunch before going out. Bought a pair of formal shoes, which costed 119 dollars la!!! Walao eh... hahaha... Then after that, went over to the G-2000 next door and bought the whole formal set of a pair of trousers, a belt, 2 shirts, a tie and a coat^^ hahaha^^ Total, it costed 330 dollars!!! OMG!!! hahaha^^ So its like my mum spent 450 dollars on me just for this prom night!!! Omg!? Thanks>.
My mum told me we were going to Hong Kong on the 21st of November, immediately after my prom la!!! Damn busy after the O levels finish, as training on the 12, 13, 14 and 15, then 16, 17, 18 and 19 have chalet. The 20th prom, and 21st is byebye... Well ya. Was really bu she de to leave de. But since this thing has happened and i am treated like this, i think i'll leave. Isn't it better, since i am really not appreciated and everything. Well, going to get a pair of basketball shoes from Hong Kong, I'll see what i can buy for the rest as well. So ya... Hong Kong, here i come...

The arrived at Jacquelyn's house at 3plus, studied a little only, as we were discussing about the thing as i decided to tell her. Well, as soon as i did, i regretted. I was like... ... ... Well ok ok, didn't talk for quite some time after she went to shower as she was thinking about the thing. Then during dinner, actually her mum asked me to join them for a steamboat meal after the O levels, but now this has happened, i dun think u would want me to go over right? Well, after dinner played around a while. Think i wouldn't want to keep those memories now. Its really enjoyable playing around, but now, well neva mind. So i left her house at around 9 plus and headed home...

~Well, ur that 1 text msg really killed me. U win. I think that i can't keep the enjoyable memories then. Since now the name Seng Kiat has came out. Ok, i get wat u mean... Dun bother right? Ok, just treat it that i never helped u or anything before. I am just ur friend, alright. A friend that u can call when u are bored. Well, iknow i am getting over in some things, but i really want to make things become smoothed out, as i dun like it when u are unhappy. I really regretted telling, and now... I am Pang Seng Kiat... Ok ok... I know i know... I'll just keep everything to myself now, since u guys all want the happy me back so much, I'll just hide my real side of me. No more the side of me that i expressed any other emotions, but only the happy side. U guys only wanted this right? I shall only show the smiling side of me and happy face, no other emotions, ya and no others, i'll only show smiles, no others in front of everyone, cause i must keep my feelings to myself then. Ok. i will. Nights.