WTF. Just got home not long ago from my step's place, and when i was having dinner, my mum told me that we are going to Hong Kong on the 20plus next month. I dun feel like going at all la, and when she told me, my expression was like... HUH!? I dun wanna go, cause i miss my friends la>.< hahaha... They more important then my family lei... But then Wei Qi also going to go Thailand soon. So its like sian-.- I'm sorry guys, lokks like ECLIPSE's training will have to wait till i return from Hong Kong, before we can actually begin:( I'm really sorry... I was also shocked when my mum told me:(

Well anyway, stayed at home the whole day to use the laptop and then Jacq called me in the afternoon, while we were using the com. Thanks, i know u were trying to make me laugh:) Thanks alot. Whereas for the thing that we talkedabout, i am sorry, but i have to go the tougher way. Ya, but just leave it. Thanks though^^

~Well anyway, please stop bothering others, u really need to wait for them to say or shout F off before listening don't u? Hahaha!!! U deserve it. Know why? U are down right irritating-.- Well, its the truth, so i guess u will just have to face it? well ya... K nights guys^^

Oooooo... Know why i was angry the past few days even though i asked u to come back? Cause the moment u texted Keith all those things, i totally gave up on u, and the moment u texted us during that same afternoon, asking us to help u with what? HA HA HA! Think i laughing? Nope i'm not. Get something right, i never put my family problems into urs. Dun think too highly of urself-.- Putting u on my list of problems would only waste my fking time.

Awww... Quarrel with ur mum before going out? I thought that was what u always did? oops... Think we never noticed that u were in pain ar? Come on la, i never notice, was on purpose-.- Ask Wei Qi or Keith la, see whether i knew or not? I didn't give a damn about ur injury. So ya, still go to 1 side and stretch ur legs. WOW? I sprained my bloody hell back because of u, and because of plying basketball with u, i nearly cramped my leg. Although i shouldn't blame u for that, but my back sprained, was really all thanks to u though-.- Still eat painkiller? I never even bother or eat any pain killers la. My back has already been injured for more than a week, Keith, Litin and Carter has been asking me to go to the doctor for checkup, yet i am not going. Cause i know that i am not so weak. Why? Back sprained must go operation or X-ray ar? Or u wanted to wait for the medical report to come out first? From the CHINESE DOCTORS? Oh.... I understand... Minor Operation right? eh eh Wei Qi, dun tell sk that i asked u to tell Jacq that i am in the hospital lei? Oops... did i let another thing out?

HAHAHA!!! That question u gave me, i can answer u very well^^ I am more than happy to do so. That planning, i already had it even before that. In fact, it was during that day that we played basketball together.It was that night, that i already planned to do so. Know why? I want u to really know, how pain it is, the pain i got from u. I will give it back, twice or three times more. Oh ya! Wei Qi told u about the basketball thing right? U know why or not? HAHAHA!!! He wanted to see what u would actually say and the answer that we got, is damn funny. Omg. Do the same to me? Well ya sure. I have the guts to take u on. So what if i lose? That will not be my motive. But my motive would be to have damn lots of fun playing u-.-

Well ya ya, Back out? F u la. Still went to buy Durian puff and lunch for her wor... Still got letter attached to it wor... I dun need help from people like u. I don't intend to. Basketball thing, i really feel like laughing at u. U really think that u are really darn good at it, but everytime u go out to play, people will say that u are damn freakin weak u know that? WTF. To think that u actually played basketball for 8 years, and u only have this standard? Whose IQ is lower? U dare say u never looked down on me in basketball ar? Some bastard still tell Wei Qi that i act that i knew the answer to the question wor? Tempo ball right? Again, HA HA HA! I agree, i didn't know the word Tempo ball, the description of my answer, was the exact same as the meaning of Tempo ball. Seriously, F u for looking down on my capabilities.

Eh get something right, i said that everyone didn't have the ability to play SF, not only u. U think that they havent commented before is it? Keith wanted to play PF, he knew he had the ability to do so. For his case, he is the exact same of u, he plays basketball since primary school and everything, but i took him in because Keith had 1 quality as a basketball player, that u, Adrian Lee Meng Kiat, didn't have. Its that he is willing to learn, and i must say, i am honoured to teach Keith myself, as he is also an experienced player when compared to me, a small kar. Why is he willing to learn from me? Cause he believes that i can pull him up, become better. U? The same old attitude of us beginners have nothing for u to learn eh? F u again la. Even an experiencedd player like keith lets me do so and in a more respectable manner. U? The moment i say ur weaknesses out, not only did u smirk, but the look on ur face was seriously making me mad. Give me attitude? u have no right to give ME attitude. Know why? it was u who thought of wanting me to ask u to join us first. If u cannot accept it, i just have to say too bad. Punch me la? from this i can already prove that u are an arrogant person, who does not listen to other's comments. Who is the stubborn and childish one now? Oh? did i hit a soft spot? Wanna argue back? U might have 1 reason to kill me, but i have a hundred others. Do not try me, as i have enough evidence to show u.

WOW!? U never think of urself wor? Nice la, cause i think u did when u actually wanted to be different from the rest in my team. U wanted to have ur own special training. There is no odd one out in a team right? I thought that was what u had said urself? Why? U want to be extra now is it? Oops, another soft spot. Nope, u didnt have to listen to me at all times. In fact normally u wouldnt even listen to me at all. So having u to listen, was just a hope, but a hope that would never come true. As u are thinking way too highly of urself. Listening to me, even a long time player like Keith can listen to me. Because he is willing to learn. U? Direct opposite. So ya, too bad, seriously. Ya, 2 years, u didn't listen to anyone, is that the way u are? I didn't know that wor. Or did i? That is why i say that u are not fit to be in the team, as u have that thinking.

Stopping this so called "fight" won't solve anything. U want to avoid this and leave it there? I can just say that the moment u do something, it can be ignited again. So no point hiding. Cause paper cannot cover a naked flame. or how about something familiar? Broken glass can be mended, but there will still be cracks seen. Ohh? Upset? Or angry now? Seriously, i dun care. All of them has asked me to ignore, and i shall. Saying sorry now? It will make no difference in doing so, as u are still the same old u. Still say that u have changed? U have been like this for 2 years wor. Still say u changed? HA HA HA! oops... Another soft spot. Alamak. Too many of it le ba.

~Well ya, Wei Qi will not always be there to cheer u up anymore. As he has given u a few chances as well. u have used them up as well. Sounds familiar? Need some reminding again?Oh ya i think so. Jacq gave u many chances, Zilin gave u the chance, Keith gave u the chance, i gave u the chance. Now? Wei Qi has also given to u the chance. U? still the same old u, using up the chances to prove urself. Whats the point of proving when there are no changes? A tiger can't change its stripes? Oh ya. Well, i will not give in to the likes of u anymore.

Oh well, last night had a long long conversation with Wei Qi and i just wanna say sorry to Keith, cause i was irritated and completely in a serious mood the whole day, even yesterday... I wasnt able to control my strength yesterday and Keith collapsed to the ground when i directly banged into him while playing ball. Sorry, i didnt think of anything when i was really serious as in terms of mindset... Today also tried to put on a smile, but i couldn't... Keith tried to make me smile by playing around, but sorry, that i shouted at u in the mall. Cause i can say that it was quite at the wrong time... ya, sorry again... Well, thanks Carter, Wei Qi, Pei Wen and Litin for trying to make me smile, indeed i have, but how long did it last? Definitely not long... I swear, i really did try to smile... Thanks anyway, but ya, i will let things all out once and for all. Problems will come up to my doorstep soon, hope that u can be as u guys said, support me and stay with me when the time comes. Cause it will come very very very soon.

Wei Qi, Carter, Jun Jie, Yi Feng, Keith, Pei Wen, Shan Shan and Litin... Thanks u guys for supporting me and promising me to help when the time comes. Cause it will come soon. I know i might have been very different from before, but i promise. i will try to bring my mask back and put it back on soon. if not, i would really have to be alone. That is why i have to thank all of u guys, for stepping out and help me. For me, i really hate it when the people around me are used for other means, and then disposed off. Only when the person has troubles, do they look for u again. I especially dislike it when we are looked down and insulted by arrogant people when it comes to serious things.

Omg. U told Shan using Wei Qi's name just because u think that she wont trust ur words? Now then u know u had that kind of effect? Seriously, about the violence thing in basketball, bring it on, denying that u are good, won't make any difference for me, cause i can say that ya, u might have been the best amongst us, but doesnt mean u can look down on us, still saying that i didn't have the answer to the question, and saying that i only act, and use ur answer. Seriously, F u, i'm not that stupid, i could even tell Yi Feng and Keith the answer in the morning immediately after i asked u, still tell Wei Qi that i act? I can tell u this, i never even treated anybody else this way before, because i am really irritated and insulted by u. The rest can vouch for me. How insulted i felt when u say i badmouth, not worth to be trusted, act by saying that i know things. Do u know how much u have actually done to me? Its really enough to kill. Trust me, thats how i feel right now. I will never treat the rest around me the way how i treat u, as they trust and believe in me, they never insult my intelligence, doubt my abilities or even cause damage to me. So don't u dare use my anger and violence to warn the rest of them. Because i will never treat them this way.

Walk away if u really want, think i care right now after u have did and said so many things about me? Go for all i care. U think Jacq's thing is why i treated u this way ar? U go fking hell woo her with ur life, i also dun care. If she wants u to continue to touch her heart, then u go la? But is it my prob? No right? And i am not bothered whether u wanna back out or not, cause it is not the real feeling that u have. I want u to fking hell get this straight to the numb skull of urs, sound familiar? Heard from Keith right? Or wat about lying to Wei Qi about Melissa's birthday? Saying that it was only a celebration for singles? Or what about saying that Jacq wanted to be ur dance partner? Was there even a dance? Or ven a Single's party? U should know the ans right? All this sounds familiar doesnt it? So wat do u think? Haven't u lied enough yet? Or even think that u are Mr Handsome that all girls love u? Lin Lin and Shan told me that whoever liked u before, were blind. Not said by me. But by the people u so called chased after before and was ur stead before. Oh? Angry now? Awwww, so sad... sarcastic? Well, i neva treated anyone like this before, and i seriously find it humorous when i see ur expression. Think i have changed? Think i am evil? Thanks to who? Adrian Lee meng Kiat. Thank u for letting me show others what i can do once i am offended. Wei Qi and i have treated u too nicely. U won't see us as the Mr Nice guys anymore towards u anymore. I won't say sorry. Cause to me, u deserve it.

~So ya, i shall now concentrate on my O levels a little more, as i have to thank someone for always reminding me for my future. I think u are now drifting away from me instead of me from u. Well, if u think the same way, it means there must be a misunderstanding. Dun worry. I will bring myself back up soon. Till then, i hope u are the one that can support me and make me smile. As i can say this, u are the only one that can. Ask the rest, they agree with me. As in u are really the one when compared to the rest, u are the only one that can really make me smile, or be upset. So its like... Never mind... I'll leave things to u then... Goodnight^^

Oh really!? Me badmouthing u? wow... Ask Wei Qi then since u trust him so much. I agree, i might be sacarstic when sometimes they talk about u, but i never ever start any of the topic about u. They ask me, i'll normally say i am tired or wat. U ask them if u dun believe me. Badmouthing others? Look who is talking... Omg...

Using Wei Qi's name to advise Shan Shan ar? HAHAHA!!! U want to force me to be sacarstic right in front of u is it? Ok... Sure i can. At least i dun go... Wei Qi~~~ How? jacq got eyecandy lei... How how how!? Still call other people's house at 2plus in the morning just to let him get scolding wor... oops... Did i say something out? Who ar? Dunno lei... Still ADVISE Shan not to trust my words because i badmouth behind u wor. I DARE u to ask them urself la? Me? badmouth u? Insult u? Wait long la hor...

Still act protective for Jacquelyn ar? ya its true that this was definitely not her fault. Cause even without her around, u and i will sooner or later be the same. Cause know why? The rest can seriously tell that who is the kiddy one. Right Wei Qi? U dun have to help cheer Adrian up anymore ba. U think that it is worth the time? He still believes that u are siding him wor, still use ur name and tell Shan that u and him advise her wor... hahaha... Could still rmb the way u were saying it last night. "WTF sia i didnt say i advise shan this and that anyway most of the time he called and ask me about jacq thing" So u think he still siding u? hahaha... I dare say that the rest are either neutral, or at the very least, believe in me. Cause after u told Shan about not trusting me because u neva know wat i say behind ur back, looks lke the rest has already found out, and are seriously doubting what u say will be true.

Done nothing wrong, i know i know... U didnt insult or look down on any of us right? hahaha... Ya i admit, i dunno what u were saying when u said Tempo ball, but at least i myself knew the answer. Think i dunno who is the one talking behind people's back ar? WOW!? U think i didn't have the answer to the question i gave u? Ask Yi feng, ask Keith, call them if u dare and ask them whether i gave them the answer to the question i gave u, even before u answered me, i already told the both of them the answer that i wanted... But looks like u look down on me eh? The rest were still asking me not to tell u ur mistakes as basketball is ur pride. So not wanting to embarrass u at all, i didnt offend u, but let u know wat i really mean when i say things seriously.

Well, Wei Qi might be the person that u think is supporting u all this time. In fact i can say he has been trying his very best to be the best friend he could be. But look at the number of lies u told him as well. He might be cheering u up over the phone, but guess wat? He is irritated and annoyed. Did u know that u made him get scolded by his parents a few times? U used his name to try and persuade others into saying i am not trustworthy, but look who is the one? I'm sorry, i have been keeping many secrets to people for quite some time, but u were the one who made me reveal them. Know why? U are too PROUD of urself. U might be good in basketball, doesnt mean u can look down on me. I dare say that i can catch up or even surpass u. U even looked down on the rest saying that there will be a definite gap, even if the rest trained to the max, u BETTER not deny it, cause everyone saw and read ur texts. Why? dun dare tell ur part of the story to Shan ar? Why say she dun have to know? Guilty is it?

Wei qi and Yi Feng, i agree with what u 2 told me today and yesterday, he really is too proud and seems to love using his "friends" right? Even Yi feng admitted and Wei Qi agreed. So where is ur so called "proof" of me badmouthing now? Sarcastic, yes i have been, but i neva use my words to make other trust me. But by using my ownself. Not like u, who uses ur ROMANTIC stuff on Jacq, ur INNOCENT stuff on Yi Feng, ur SADDENING expression u give Wei Qi. Its irritating u know. Whatever u are doing that is. Cause guess what? I dun ask them about ur things, but it is my FRIENDS that let me know what u did.

So u shall be the one that should be thinking, not me. Though the rest knows that i can't because of u. I have already given up, because i am not someone who should be looked down upon, be used by u, or even be lied to. So too bad for u. Me? Forcing u? dun even have the thought of it. U were the one who seems to be thinking too much. cause i never do so.

Well, since i am treated as a person who talks behind other people's back, trying to spoil ur so called "image". I shall fucking hell shut my big mouth can? Merely showing the smses that u sent me and everything, not telling others abt u, u think i backstabber ar? u fucking hell dream on ba! Every single time they talk abt u, i just keep quiet. Dun think so ar? ask keith? Litin? ask Jacq? ask them urself la! Every single time they talk abt u, i bloody hell shut my mouth abt u ok? But when u send me those smses that i feel really bothered, then i show them. U think i am a backstabber? Kiddy brained? Treatin things and dealing with them like a kid? Or a child? Will u just think again? i just merely ignored u, not talked abt u to others, and there u are, saying that i talk behind ur back? get this right. I dun have so much time for nonsense. Who do u think u are? Are u that important to me that i have to bloody hell tell the whole world abt u and badmouth u? Kiss ur own ass before saying things will u? I already neva talked abt u and left things alone. But u? Can u give it a rest? Wei Qi, Keith, Carter, Yi Feng, Shan Shan, Zilin, Litin and jacquelyn trusts me. U know why? I am not like u. Please. Who is the one that should grow up? Me? Oh really, i am sorry, but i dun badmouth, and psycho others like wat u think. I dun have so much time to do so.

K fine, since u think that u are guilty, find him then, i am a good for nothing person that is the cause of this ok? i psycho and badmouth others, i am a person who backstabs when i have nothing to do. I spend my whole day and time to talk bad abt him. i am like this? Alright? U dun feel guilty, everything i create de, my fault alright? Talk to him, believe him, for all i care... Now i am only going to spend my time on my own things. Alright?

Just finished talking to some of them, and i am already exhausted from everything. Basketball, O level, and the thingy. Anyway, i shall shut my bloody hell mouth when i didn't open them. i shall just continue talking abt my own life.

Woke up at 11.30am today, and i had my shower and everything before switching on my laptop to play around a while. Then soon after went over to play basketball at Litin's place there. Then never had the mood to play basketball at all, but tried to use all the time i have as its going to be my last day to play before my O levels ends... Only after, can i continue, anyway, now my legs and back is preventing me from playing anyway, so dun feel too guilty abt it. Anyway, not in the mood to talk now.

~So ya, goodnight. Fine. I already shut up, but u want to play around? I can, but do i? Sorry, i am not such a person.

Tired right now, was quite happy with how Wei Qi's rebound, as i could actually see that his rebound is gradually improving^^ ya... hahaha^^ For Yi Feng, congrats^^ U burnt me today^^ hahahaha!!! I can say that i was really shocked la!!! hahaha... i really got jump la, and u burnt me-.- OMG!!! hahaha^^ well, anyway, i can see that ur dribbling is getting more better, u just have to move faster for now, cause for u to improve, u have to have power right now^^ hahaha^^ so jia you!!! hahaha^^ Carter, just remember what i told u can le^^ hahaha, u can do it as well de^^ hehehe^^

Well, looks like i have been voted by the rest as the captain of ECLIPSE now^^ hahaha... Keith is the vice-captain, and Wei Qi is 1 of our important personal as well^^ hahaha^^ Looks like Carter and Yi Feng will be personally be given extra training by me, because they were willing to learn and ask me for help, so ya, dun worry, i will be there if u need extra help^^ hahaha, Keith will have to train together with Litin, as they would be the shooting guards of our team^^ hahaha, Wei Qi, u just have to continue to jia you, ur shotting is changing, which is good, but i will have to train ur dribble myself.. so ya^^ jia you guys!!! hahaha^^

ok ok, i woke up at 9am this morning, the first thing i did? Morning call!!! hahaha^^ To the pig that asked me to wake her up at 9... hahaha^^ Ok, anyway, met up with Jacq and Keith at Sengkang Mrt, and we proceeded to mac to have our breakfast^^hahaha... Stupid la-.- Still make me wear hair clip, and take pic somemore!!! walao eh-.- I kena bullied la-.- By Litin on my left and Babo Alien on my right-.- Both pinch me and tickle me, and Alien bite me la-.- still say good luck bite-.- BABO!!! hahaha...

Well, today's maths paper 2 was a breeze^^ hahaha... Can say that i am so happy for myself right now, as i have a sense of accomplishment^^ hahaha^^ Maths... English... BYE!!! hahaha^^
WOOHOO!!!!!!! Go go go!!! hahaha^^

~Well goodnights now, going to sleep soon^^ last night got forced to sleep early, but tired right now... hahaha^^ ok ok, bye guys^^ I'm sorry, but i have to leave u... Ya, thats all... I not sure, but i am getting more and more upset now:(

I'm sorry, but it seems like it doesn't get into ur head, so ya i'm sorry, u will not join us. As the thing is that they are able to understand what i am saying, but it seems like... never mind, i lazy to say le. The purpose of asking u the question this morning, is because i want to see whther u would have changed ur usual attitude of being the best or whatever shit, but it seems like it is the same, isnt it??? I give up, i failed to see the real change, u might have changed back to urself, but its that self that has the prob, u wanted me to ask wei qi whether u have Dong Fang Xiang's attitude? Omg... Its not BHB anymore, but more of blowing the trumpet, don't u think? I think Wei Qi has a better understanding right now, and i believe i have made the right choice even if u are not around. As i trust my them that they will listen to me even if it is next time, because they will remember 1 thing, i have trained them to this standard, and i hope and pray that u guys will do it, cause i really spend alot of time thinking for u guys and plan everything well for u guys... So ya... Wei Qi, Keith, Yi Feng, Carter and Litin... I wish that i will have the honour of training u guys to what u call potential players, and i really really really wish and hope that i will be able to reach there alongside u guys... U guys have agreed to train under me, and i shall give and put all my effort in, i will never let ECLIPSE down. I swear^^

Anyway, had O level maths paper 1 today, and i was like feeling so sleepy-.-Zzz... Last night in the end, 3am then finally fall asleep-.- I waited on my bed from 1 plus all the way to 3 am before finally falling asleep la-.- Anyway, the paper was relatively simple, and after finishing the paper, i remembered that the Alien's mum wanted me to lend her the O level maths question paper so that alien can roughly do and see what is the standard of O level maths, but then they were not going to return it, as it is the answer booklet as well-.-... So i had to use the fullscap paper that they provided, to copy down as much as i could... In the end... Sorry Jacq... I couldn''t copy the last 7 questions:( I only managed to copy till question 19:( Sorry... I was too slow liao...

~Sigh... anyway, O level maths paper 2 tmr, and after that, bye bye to maths and english already^^ hahaha... Plus, on the bright side, i am going to play basketball tmr... though back is still injured-.- but neva mind, i'll try to play abit... ^^ hahaha...

WHOOHOO!!! Blog post number 100!!! hahaha^^
walao-.- last night i cannot sleep la-.- In the end i slept only at 230am la!!! wth-.- Was quite sleepy when i woke up in the morning, wanted to go back to sleep de, but then got o level english paper-.- so cannot sleep liao... hahaha... Supposed to meet stupid alien alone at macdonald to have breakfast today... hahaa... lucky got more people in the end^^ if not too gan ga already... hahaha... ps ar... In the end got, Adrian, Wei Qi, Keith, Jun Jie, Shan Shan, Pei Wen and Alien there... so many people la^^ FUN^^ hahaha^^

Ok ok, O level english paper today was seriously, much much much easier than all the normal school work that our english teachers give la-.- wtf-.- bloody hell teachers-.- give us the paper so hard, then the o level so easy-.- sian-.-

Anyway, dun want to talk about o level liao... hahaha... I think i know the standard of the papers already... ya, ok ok... walao... Damn happy la!!! Guess wat? i learnt 2 new moves by my ownself, while i was at my step's place^^ hahaha, I managed to control the lousy ball, which of course improves my actual ball control, and i learnt this pass that can totally put my opponents off!!! hahaha^^ Quite happy with myself nowadays, cause i can train my ownself, and i have gained the acknowledgement and encouragement by my EAGLES YOUTH team captain, to go on and open my team!!! hahaha^^ GO GO GO ECLIPSE!!! hahaha^^ i also manage to learn a AND1 move by my ownself as i was experimenting with my ball control, i even pretended that my 5 year old brother was my opponent... hahaha... mad liao... But most importantly, now i can even imagine an opponent in front of me and practise even if i am alone, this puts me at a even greater chance of improving my ball control... Too bad my back is still injured-.- FUCK LA!!! stupid back injury-.- I want to start my vertical training by myself now, but i cannot because of my left leg injuries plus my back injuries-.- going to 1 week liao-.- sian... idiot!!! I want to start my vertical training NOW!!! ARGH!!! hahaha...

Anyway, u should be happy that i am reconsidering right now... cause i seem to have want to let things go now... u are lucky that i dun bear grudges for long... But i give u a warning first. i want to see how things go first. Dun be too happy yet, because, whenever u give me the wrong signal, or u do something that i dislike again, FUCK OFF-.- so i warn u first. Dun let me hear that u did something that i u shouldn't do. Because i will be watching u very closely... So ya...

Ok ok, going to try to sleep really soon, damn tired la-.- last night sleep at 230-.- than just now o level exam cannot take it, then i fall asleep also-.- too tired sia... sian... hahaha stupid shan shan-.- Just now Msn shock me-.- hahaha, she damn childish la-.- watch too much t.v liao... Went crazy, still say wat darling sk... Brrrr... got goosebumbs la-.- hahaha... Lucky, u act to be my mum only, i cant believe if u are really my mother-.- I BANG THE WALL AR!!! hahaha... no la jokn^^

~ok ok, goodnight everybody^^ Maths o level tmr^^ everybody, GOODLUCK!!! WHOOHOO!!! GO ECLIPSE!!! hahaha^^ night night^^

Good morning everyone... Woke up at 12plus, and texted Keth, cause i might be goint over to Hougang mall to study alone with him... Cause it seems like i cannot study in my home environment at all:( So have to at least try at another place... sigh...

Well anyway, I think i'll continue with my ECLIPSE logo designing later on. Most likely would have to sleep early today, i cannot sleep at my usual time today,because O level paper tmr!!!-.- Sian la, once my paper starts, i cannot go around to play basketball or hang out with my friends too much.. Sigh... Life would sure be bored... But as a trusted friend said before, it'll all be over very soon... Struggle for 2 weeks more only... Ok, i'll heed ur advice, as i have said before, thank u for caring...

Ok, anyway, i want to say this time that i do not expect anything from u, because i have no rights to do so ba... ya, because all this, its 1 sided, so its like... ok neva mind, u might find that things are drifting apart, its really because i havent been going out to walk or talk to u for some time already... After that day, i did ask u to hang out, but u were busy mah, so its like ya... Ok la, if u really want to know the reason, go ask our gd friend... She knows wat i really feel right now... ok ok, now bye guys, gonna have my shower and lunch now...
Pang Seng Kiat, 11

Yea! I've found the Adidas store that i wanted already^^ hahaha...

I'm like totally not not not in the mood to study right now-.- Know why? Wei Qi, Keith and Shan, u should know right? sigh... anyway, i'll be trying to study later on after dinner, cause i really have to put in effort in my studies now, though i am more into basketball at this point in time, i still have to study right? hahaha, so after o level, say goodbye to all these... hahaha...

Kk, just finished talking to Litin on Msn not long ago, and was discussing abt the basketball plannings i have made. Our first 6 people in ECLIPSE, are:
Seah Litin No.12
Pang Seng Kiat No.11
Ang Yi Feng No.10
Tu Wei Qi No.9
Carter Seah No.7
Keith Teo No.4

So ya, i have already planned to bring the team out, and i am going to take a look at the Adidas store that i am planning to get our jerseys and hopefully, shoes as well from... Oh ya, 1 more thing, i need u guys to help and nominate the capt and vice-capt asap. as i want the follwing leaders to help ot, the rest of the team will as well help out, but i really need thhe 6 of us to vote on the 2 leaders, majority gets the posts, so ya. Let me know soon^^

hahaha... just went to research some of the moves that i am planning to learn and learning right now from Hot Shot... hahaha... I still think that Hot Shot is cool, and i am still researching from just now, so ya, JIA YOU!!! hahaha^^

ok i'm back from Wei Qi's place, discussed the plan and mapping i made about our team during the time spent there... I read up and tried to remember a little on my format for speech and the format on the formal letter, as the format for the letter has changed, so ya, trying to remember it just now...

Then around 8 o'clock, Keith came over, and then the 3 of us went over to the basketball court at 510 there... I explained the basics that Wei Qi needed, and then Keith was helping out as well, my training procedure would greatly increase Yi Feng's playing style, only if he really is into being in our training after the o levels. Plus have decided on the team name... ECLIPSE. I would be trying to design the logo tomorrow, and i will be trying to look out for its chinese name.

Couldn't play well just now and show u what i meant Wei Qi, cause my back was really hurt and sprained, needed some time to heal before i can play at 100% percent, but i cant, my left knee and ankle is also injured from my past trainings at home, so cant really bring out any energy to play ball for the next few days... So ya, even if i play, i cannot put myself to play, cause i am resricted-.- Plus my body is at its weakest right now, so i cannot do anything right now. I'm sorry if i cant show my examples and teach u 2 now, but don't u guys worry... Wei Qi, Keith, Yi Feng, Carter and Litin, I'll bring u guys to a whole new level of basketball, and I Pang Seng Kiat, member of Eagles Youth and current creator of ECLIPSE, shall show u with the results. Give me 2 months after the O level, I assure u, ECLIPSE, will rise as a well known team of strong players that just learnt basketball.^^

~Alright now speaking of 2 months... Now, i'll finally undo my happy and smiling mask that i have been putting on for so long. From August till now. I shall put the mask aside and let others see my true side. So ya, u better watch ur back. I make sure, and i swear, if u touch something in this period of 2 months, U, can say goodbye. Cause i'll show u, the true meaning of power, strength, and of course, Skill. Thats all... In fact once in front of everyone, u'll know the meaning of THROW face. Especially in front of me. So thats it. I am in no condition to play around with people now, and not in the condition to hide, but my thirst for pain or even suffering, might have been finally released, and thanking u would be treating u abit too kindly. So ya, bye bye... Nobody has ever experienced this side of me before, looks like u will be the first in my life.

If u really like it, go for it, its ur choice, so i wont stop u or anything, what u like to do, i have to let u do, so ya, but lets just say, i am left with no choice but to do things another way... i'm sorry, i'll just have to break my way of doing things...
Goodnight guys...

sigh... Just woke up... Sorry guys, didn't post yesterday, as was too exhausted already...
Yesterday we had our O level Practical Papers, and i can say that it was really really easy^^ hahaha... Well, i finished in an hours time, and i had 30 mins to play with the chemicals on my bench... hahaha... While i was playing around, the teacher was actually looking at me as i mixed the chemicals and played with the onion and the powder x... hahaha... when i finished mixing, the smell was so horrible that i choked over it... hahaha... Both the invigilator and Xin yu, were laughing when they saw me la... hahaha^^

After sch, i rushed all the way home and had my shower before going out to find Wei Qi and Pei Wen, before going over to Kovan to play pool... Was supposed to go Vivo yesterday, but Litin didn't want to go... So neva mind, we went Kovan^^ While waitin for Wei Qi to change, Pei wen and i waited at the basketball court of Punggol C.C, and i played a little bit of basketball... Sorry if i played, and if u are angry now... I didn't plan to play, but while waiting for Wei Qi, i played for merely 15-20mins only... I swear... sorry... sigh...I swear, i wont play for the next 3 days, alright? i already made my promise, so ya... sorry...

Played pool, and many photos were taken... hahaha, too bad its all with Litin... hahaha... Then after playing, we went over to Macs to let some of them have their meal... I wasn't hungry, so i merely had a medium coke, and then, Wei Qi, Keith, Litin, Yi Feng and i were on the heated conversation about basketball... hahaha... Looks like i will be leading the training after the O levels and for now, all i can do is plan and strategise the plan of the court and who shall play which position... Last night even talked to Wei Qi till 3am inthe morning over the phone about the team names, the weaknesses and strengths of the individuals, and my planning of the court's positions... Thats why didn't blog yesterday... hahaha...

~Well, sorry that i used the com, i'll switch it off now i guess... sigh... I think i might be going over Wei Qi's house later alone to talk to him about my schedule and plans after the O level, seems like my friends now get what i mean and how i train people, so it seems like i have gained the trust that i needed to form a strong team... Will try to study as well later when i go over... I hope... Can'y use my laptop and can't play basketball anymore for a while... sigh... I'll keep to my promise, dun worry...
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U guys see him? After watching hot shots, i am so damn motivated to play basketball better... hahaha...Number 11 shall be my next number, and i'll aim to strive^^ hahaha...

O level? Not really stressed ba, but i am a little nervous and worried, cause i am afraid that i will lose concentration only during the exam... sigh... hahaha... enough abt my o level, back to basketball^^ hahaha!!!

Have been facing the com the whole day, no mood to study la-.- wth... Then i've been glued to the screen the whole day, trying to figure out ways for improvement, and i dare say that my heart is really into basketball now^^ hahaha... I reviewed the last 3 episodes of hot shot again today, and i am even more enthusiastic now... hahaha... Wu Ji Zun, Yuan Da Ying, and Dong Fang Xiang... Damn cool la... hahaha... their moves... Whoohoo!!! hahaha... I'll remember the ones that i will be learning and practsing, hope that i can put them into good use^^ hahaha...

Went to look into Adidas and Nike basketball websites, trying to find basketball equipment to buy after my O levels, and i found some nice shoes man!!! hahaha... 1 is the Kevin Garnet's shoe.. the green adidas one... Damn nice la, OMG... hahaha... Well, looks like i am turning into a basketball lunatic now eh? hahaha...

~Well, only if there is something that can make me pull away from basketball... I know what it is, but nah... hahahaha... Basketball is important to me now, as it is a fun a my interest now. I'll put my heart into it now, and i think that many things cannot distract me away from it... Unless... Well... Neva mind... Basketball, LETS GO^^!!! hahaha^^ I'll create something for my self... hmm... hahaha... PangSengKiatNo.11, from Team Origin!!! hahahahahahahahaha!!! Sorry ar, i think i dreaming... hahahaha!!!

Bye bye^^

Virgo... My sign and i will always consider this as a important part of my life...

THE Zodiacal Sign of Virgo commences on August 21st, but for seven days it does not come into its full power until on or about August 29th. From this date onwards it is in full strength until September 20th, and is then for seven days gradually losing its strength on account of becoming overlapped by the "cusp" of the incoming sign - Libra.

The emblem of Virgo, a virgin holding sheaves of wheat in her hands symbolizes wisdom, garnered in the fields of experience. Like the true virgin, most Virgos are shy and, like a virgin tend to wait to give herself to the perfect lover, Virgo is also idealistic. With a Mercury as the ruling planet, people born under this sign are quick thinking and observant. They define pure modesty; they can't bear to be taken care of, they prefer to take care of others. People who were born in this period are as a rule generally successful in life.

They have keen, good intellects, are very discriminating about those with whom they associate, and in all business matters they have good judgment, and are not easily imposed upon or deceived. They are usually materialistic in their views of life, and analyze and reason everything from their own way of thinking outwards.

These people are and attracted to only that knowledge that can be applied usefully. They will happily share this information with anyone, if it confirms their own usefulness in the world, and brings them eagerly out of there shells. These people can become good literary critics, being quick to see the weak points. They are extremely fond of harmony in their surroundings, have excellent taste about their house and dress, and always want things in good taste, and elegant.

Virgos are usually fastidious about their personal appearance, have a great respect for rank and position, and are great supporters of the law and the law's decisions. They usually develop this skill to improve themselves and their surroundings as they place great pride in tangible achievements. These people may spend part of their lives heading off on detours and then suddenly emerge as someone with a remarkable sense of direction.

They can adjust easily to change once they find a way of fitting the new situation into their routine. They are inclined to become wrapped up in themselves and their own ideas, and often become selfish in the close pursuit of their aims. These people are more capable of going to extremes in good and evil than any other type. If they develop a love for money they will stick at nothing to acquire it, and this type is often considered cunning and crafty at the expense of others. In love they are the most difficult to understand, the very best and the very worst of men and women being born in this part of the year.

To people born under this sign love is not dramatic, emotional, or sentimental. Love for them is devotion and will include love of family, friends, and those less fortunate than he or she. There is no pretense involved in how they act or what they say.

Marriage is a major commitment; they value their union as both a love relationship and a working partnership. A warm relationship brings out the best in anyone born under this sign because basically they are kind, devoted and very loyal. Disappointment, however, can harden them into a cynic and a skeptic.

Virgos consequently become quite critical with themselves as well as with circumstances, due to the effect of such disappointments on a sensitive and discriminating nature.


Virgo - The Sign of the Harvest GoddessThe people who were born under the sign of Virgo have the strongly advanced analytical mind and all the time trying to glue labels on everything they see. They have sharp feelings of taste, time, hearing and sense of smell. The symbol of this sign is Virgo. It does not mean, that they are pure and sinless . It means that heir amazing abilities to observe allow them to see all the human lacks. Usually they do not like everything that they see, and they withdraw like Virgo.

Virgo and Leo love compatibility
Here is a good chance for a happy partnership. Magnanimous Leo will overlook Virgo's tendency to be critical, while Virgo will take pride in Leo's accomplishments, good humor, and lovable nature. Virgo will bring in that couple's sexual life large amount of emotional heat and understanding. Leo will respect Virgo's clever and alert mentality. Virgo will try to excite and satisfy the partner. Leo is also persevering person, so the chances for mutual satisfaction are really big. This is one of those relationships that depends on the type of relationship it is. The connection is usually "nice" and a long union also is possible.

Virgo and Aries love compatibility
The bravery of the Aries will probably intrigue the imagination of shy, reserved Virgo for a time. However, their sexualities are so different, that they will have to be very patient in order to succeed. Aires's passions are impulsive and direct. Virgo's sexuality is more enigmatic and takes time to be revealed. In other areas Aries is full of exciting new plans and ideas, and insists on being boss. Virgo is critical and fussy, and likes things to be done the way Virgo wants. In case the charts are well aspected for these two it could work, but it will take a lot of effort on both sides. Otherwise the relationships will not be very pleasant and chances for a successful marriage are fifty / fifty.

Virgo and Cancer love compatibility
Cancer's responses are emotive while Virgo's are analytical, but their personalities mesh so well that it doesn't seem to matter. The Virgo is practical person and gives a basis for this union. The Cancer is more emotional creature but they are capable to feel pleasure from their relationships. They perfectly fit each other in the bedroom. One of the dangers in this relationship will be too much caring! This can turn out to be quite interesing connection in case the Virgo is little less demonstrative and affectionate with cancer.

Virgo and Libra love compatibility
Virgo lives according to her/his rules while Libra is absolutely different creature. There are also other discrepancies of characters. Virgo is more interested in money, than in sex. Libra finds it inexcusable. Stay-at-home Virgo resents Libra's socialbutterfly instincts and pursuit of pleasure. Libra's tastes are expensive. Virgo is careful, not to say miserly. Libra finds Virgo fussy, critical, completely inflexible. Virgo can also be a grumbling and tiresome person with dictatorial propensity. Libra will not stand it too long and start searching for support somewhere else. Virgo, is more straight forward about his/her approach to sex and Libra methods of the "dance" can drive him or her up the wall. This is a doubtful connection and extremely complicated marriage

Virgo and Taurus love compatibility
There will be love at first sight- Both are homebodies and they share the same intellectual pursuits. Virgo, while making love prefers simple ways/positions. The Taurus is not against simplicity, but his/her style in sex can be disturbing for Virgo. But in the other aspects of life they don't have many problems. Taurus's tenacity and Virgo's sharp mind are a good combination for success as a team. And Taurus keeps a careful eye on expenditures, which pleases thrifty Virgo. A good connection is possible, but it demands to be more patient from the representatives of the both signs.

Virgo and Scorpio love compatibility
Their interests are the same in many areas, but they are too different when it refers to the sexual sphere. It is difficult for them to establish good relationships. Virgo can become captious. Restrained Virgo has trouble keeping up with highly demonstrative Scorpio and doesn't understand what all the fuss and bother is about. Scorpio can fly into jealous rages for no reason, even if Virgo has proved to be a faithful mate, and the general Scorpio views are hard for Virgo to take or agree with for Virgo always sees the other side of the situation and the other persons point of view. In other words Scorpio can be roughly frank. The spiritual affinity is possible for some time, and then Scorpio will probably begin to search for new sexual partners. Friendship may be the best idea here.

Virgo and Aquarius love compatibility
Both are mental signs rather than emotional, but Virgo looks on the darker side of life while Aquarius is imaginative and optimistic. There is no strong sexual attraction between them. Aquarius needs activity, social events, a wide circle of acquaintances. Virgo enjoys a quiet existence with a few close friends. There will be neither especially strong excitation, nor interesting erotic games. The sober, practical Virgo is inclined to criticize the Aquarius' generosity. Their goals are very different: Aquarius wants to be as brilliant as possible; Virgo wants to be as efficient as possible. The marriage is possible in case they both have strong feelings towards each other.

Virgo and Capricorn love compatibility
Virgo's neat orderly mind meshes well with Capricorn's self-discipline and capacity for hard work. Both take pride in their home, enjoy having a few close friends rather than many acquaintances, and admire each other's intellectual abilities. The Caoricorn's practicality suits the Virgo's accuracy perfectly. There are possible misunderstandings in the field of sex, but they know and feel each other so well, that these misunderstandings don't disturb them. They are both - clever, conservative and patient. This relationship could suffer from lack of romance, as both tend to be a bit reserved in this area. Generally there is a good basis for a long union.

Virgo and Gemini love compatibility
Both are Mercury ruled and have a mental approach to life. But similarity ends there; these two are star-crossed from the beginning. Gemini treats Virgo as a boring creature. There are precise representations about sexual behavior in the Virgo's head. The Gemini will show indecision. After attenuation of passion's fire Virgo will start to grumble and criticize Gemini. Gemini will start searching for entertainment with someone else in his/her turn. Passions run on a low thermostat; their sex life soon turns chilly. This is going to be as short as flash relationship, which has not a chance to last long time.

Virgo and Virgo love compatibility
Both of them are constrained in the sexual relations and consider love as a basis for something more important - partnership in life. They are responsible, sensitive, intelligent, and take love seriously. They also share passions of the mind, and will never bore each other. The requirements in a bedroom are not too great and do not cause many complaints and criticism. Both the intense affair and the marriage are possible in case these perfectionists curb their instincts for finding fault. There will probably also be a continual contest over who is leader, but they have too much else in common for that to matter.

Virgo and Sagittarius love compatibility
The Sagittarius' attitude to love drives Virgo out of his/her mind. The Virgos' feeling of safety is vanishing. Sagittarius doesn't try to understand the Virgo's needs. Elsewhere, Virgo looks for order and simplicity whereas Sagittarius looks for excitement and new experiences. Virgo wants a long term commitment; Sagittarius has to be free to roam. Since Virgo is not one to place too great an emphasis on the sexual side of life and does not have the same appetites that Sagittarius has, Sagittarius may well feel that he or she is justified in finding a new lover from time to time which will cause many fights. They will be able to stay together for a week, but not for the rest of the life.

Virgo and Pisces love compatibility
The love is closely connected with the stability, physical needs, intellectual compatibility. The love for the Pisces is a beauty and emotional experiences. The Virgo's cautious, prudent attitude the to sex doesn't satisfy unlimited desires of the Pisces . The marriage will probably be unsuccessful.

Well, have been very very sleepy for the whole day today, as last night i slept at 4 plus, was watching Hot Shot and then after 3.30am, Thought of somethings, all the way till 4 plus, before finally falling asleep... After waking up, slight fever and cough and i still went out with my parents when they woke me up at 12... Then they didnt even noticed abt it, even when we were outside walking and buying things la... Nvm then-.-

Well... seems like i am forgotten already, and it is best to let it be, cause i have been spending time alone at home, or spending my time playing basketball at the courts for the past few days, so ya, i think it is best that i am spending more time alone ba... hahaha... alone watching my shows, playing ball, watching tv... Anyway, going to try and sleep earlier later if i can, very tired the whole day today... Gonna knock out very soon.

~K guys, early post today, have fun on wed, i wanna see things first. Nights...
Handphone was sooooooooo dead today... sigh...

Horoscope reading and tarot for tmr:

[The Moon card suggests that if you are in the dark and caught up in illusion where love is concerned, then false motives or inconsistencies may be revealed or a choice may need to be made. As a result, you could feel moody or unsettled. If you go with your gut, it might turn out to be a good time for romance or spontaneous acts of passion -- provided they are expressions of your true nature, rather than being created from a need for acceptance.

Your restlessness early in the day will burn off, if you just jump in and take that crazy risk. Contemplation only gets you so far, so be sure to take action as soon as the opportunity arises. Your confidence will then shine again.]

Sigh... Well... back from basketball just now... I noticed that my overall physical has deteriorated tremendously... Sian-.- I again hope that O levels will be over soon, so that i can go cheong all the way for basketball^^

hahaha... Well...well... Have been watching Hot shot these past 2 days... hahaha... seems quite motivated... But now thinking abt something a little more than basketball... hahaha^^ But i think i would wanna let things be first ba^^ hahaha... Basketball... Lets go^^ hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!! ^^

ok ok, today i went over to my stupid alien's place to study at 12, idiot la... say me stupid bear-.- want die ar!!! hahaha... still complain to ur mum say i neva study properly-.- BABO!!! hahaha^^ Well, helped out with her art work today, and i hope that i really helped out in something... hmm... Anyway... Thanks, hahaha... cause it seems like i can only study when u are so strict la-.- walao... like teacher like that-.- I want to rest, still snap at me ask me continue... BULLY!!! hahaha... no la... jokn^^ hahaha... Anyway, u want take pics ar? hahaha after o level lo... hahaha... now i think dun really have chance to go out too often, so difficult to take pics la... hahaha... After O's??? i see la... hahaha... K la k la... Just now is not i dun want to compliment u la>.<>//////< BABO!!!

Kk, gonna continue with my Hot Shots before going to bed later... hahaha^^ goodnights^^ hehehe...

I'll be waiting~~~

Whoo... rested a whole day today, went out with mum and family at 1pm...
I think its like my 1st time going out with my family for the whole month la... hahaha... went to turf city, and ate there as well^^ hahaha... quite bored though, but as i was listening to my music throughout, i was actually thinking abt basketball la... OMG... hahaha... I think i going mad already.... hahaha... Well...

After i reached home, i went online to search for Hot Shots, and i have been watching like mad la... hahaha... Half of the series, i have already finished watching and i intend to sleep soon... hahaha... Cause tmr going Jacq's place to study, and i might even be playing basketball at Braddel Height's C.C at night as well... So ya... I need to see how i am gonna spend my time lo... hahaha... Looks like i have gotten alot of motivation for basketball this week, and i am so going to go with the flow... hahaha... Nothing much to post today, as nothing whatsoever had happened... Wasn't even at all happy when i went over to my step's place, and i was like damn bored when i was there-.- Luckily i had my thoughts that accompanied me as i was bored throughout-.-

Anyway, after studying at Jacq's house tmr, i guess i'll go play basketball at the C.C while her family goes out to celebrate halloween at night ba... hahaha... I think i'll put my memory to gd use and use it to play as well... so ya... hahaha... I not sure whether my little injuries will be alright by tmr, but i think it should be fine... hahaha... but my body has definitely renergized after the long rest today^^ hahaha... GoGoGo!!!^^

~Kk... goodnight guys^^ Shall sleep early today if i wanna wake up tmr... hahaha^^

Look at my hand:( Got cut by some noobs at the basketball court today... Fingernail so long la walao eh... hahaha...

Went to play basketball at Braddel heights C.C again today... This time went to meet Wesley over at the court and started playing ball already... hahaha... Walked all the way from home to the court... as a form of warmup i suppose... hahaha... Then when i was there, i sat and waited as team by teams were playing 4 vs 4... hahaha... Then there's this grp of pri sch kids who really wants to play, but the other teams were either teenagers, or adults-.- Damn bully la-.- There were many people that seems to be from china as well... Then i just joined the 3 kids as a form of warming up before really playing later... hahaha... In the end, the 1st match, we won!!! hahaha... miracle right? hehehe... cannot blame la, got so many compliments... hahaha... i think i was floating like from underneath players and to the ring... hahaha... damn nice la my hang time today... hahaha... seems to have improved wor^^ hahaha... as i jumped, i was abt to be rejected by 2 guys, i brought the ball under their hands and hung all the way to the ring la^^ hahahaha... Yea!!! then soon after, my step bro went back home, and i played basketball all the way to 10.30 pm before leaving the court, and again, i met the guy la... hahaha... this time i was in the same group as him and now is known as the unstoppable there^^ hahaha... Cool right^^ hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

Labels: I enjoy my time alone... Thank u^^

K, now i am like... not sure of what i am supposed to do.
K just finished talking on the phone and now blogging, then i had a long day today...

Firstly, i woke up at 12 today, cause i have my auto wake up call all the time-.- Seems like i am having wake up calls all the time these few days... then in the afternoon, i went to meet Keith and Litin, so that we went to play basketball over at Hougang. I caught a cold, and is suffering with a little cough, and definitely sneezes now-.- It was alright just now and during the evening, but in the afternoon and right now, i seem to be wheezing all the time-.-

K, then as we played ball, noticed that my arm as improved in terms of strength, shooting 3points, makes it alot easier now, as i have a feeling that i had alot of strength... K, then we practised some shooting drills, and then while i was playing a warm up 1 on 1, i slipped on the wet floor, my leg got cut-.- As my right knee, slipped, it dragged on the rough floor, and i was like... OW... K neva mind then... In the end, we left around 6 45pm, cause Litin needed to go home...

Then i went alone back to Braddel Heights C.C, and played with basketball with the people there^^ Seems like i didnt put my training to waste^^ hahaha... They were like astounded that i could actually play that well, and i seems to be a little high today when i was playing ball^^ hahaha... They actually remembered me that i was the guy in sch uniform ytd, and they were like... Wow... So u play basketball... hahaha... Then i received some compliments here and there, hahaha... It sure was nice^^ hehehe... But i noticed that there were some damn strong players there as well... there was this guy, he was from a team named SinKee, in chinese is xin yi... No.6, i remembered very clearly, damn was he strong, fast and accurate... hahaha... I think he was like 1 of the few strongest there la, hahaha... then in the end, i was like damn exhausted, neva had so much fun and challenge in my life, and i am like enjoying basketball back from the start again^^ hahahahahaha... This time, they rmb me, and they will always rmb the name, Eagles Youth as well^^ hahahahaha!!! Yea!

Well, that is just something i like abt myself, once i start something, i dun intend to end it, so ya^^ For example, if i start a quarrel, the only time it ends is when i have won. Like in my basketball^^ The only time it will end, is really when i have reached the top, which is so not going to happen, so lets just say, its gonna be an important part of my life now^^, hehehe...

~Well, just had some probs again, and i will be like awake till later, before i think sleeping at 3am ba... so ya, goodnight guys... By the way, I am so not in the mood for alot of fun now, so ya, if u wanna make me smile or anything, u can, but so long as u dun play overboard when u are playing with me... i get hot tempered easily nowadays, ya, so i suggest that, if u wanna try something funny on me, u better dun even think abt it. cause i am so not interested and will not be sure what i might say. So ya, i might not be too much into texting too many people as well, unless i want to, so ya, save it.

K, now is already like 2am in the morning, and i just finished talking to Wei Qi on MSN, and i am like releasing all my anger and vulgarities... Like my evil or even saddistic thoughts overwhelming me now as my anger is building as time goes by. I am like, exploding in front of him just now, u guys might think that i am crazy, but i can say that i am not, Wei Qi, u understand wat i meant right?

I think i have noticed my change now, at long last... What my drastic change really is... My treatment to everybody. dun include my family in, i just found out today that i have became more different after the holidays started. Like for example, this morning, i met up with Shan Shan, Jun Jie and Angela at compasspoint's macdonald. When i was like having my breakfast, both Jun Jie and Angela said that i have changed, i thought they were like jokn with me, but it seems like its not... Then while i was in the library studying, they said that i was too quiet, and emo-.- WTH? since when? Then i blasted music into my ears and continued with my maths and geography, no idea wat they were saying, i continued with my work. During our biology briefing, i was like being damn sarcastic during the lesson to the teachers, then when they took my wallet and Shan Shan kept my money, i was like... No mood to play... Then when i didn't talk to u guys, i was really really expecting u guys to return it to me, in the end, play more, still say that i emo again-.- but then u all were like playing, so i just... Aiya, neva mind la, but i was already quite upset...

Then after sch, we went over to Kovan to have lunch at Yoshinoya right? I was already fuming mad when Jun Jie was still reluctant to return me my money, i was already abt to shout fuck off in the place la. But neva mind, i just shove the bloody hell earpiece in my ear and continue again. I was already damn angry, i thought that going out can release my anger and relax, then u all still like that... In the end when i quiet, u all keep saying i emo-.- WTF... Sorry, but after the thing, i have already put aside quite alot of things, so its like playing around with me, u can, but please, timing??? i already repeatedly say that i am NOT in the mood to play around, and u all took it that i am just saying it out ar? Neva mind then...

Then afterthat, went over to the pool tables at Kovan and Keith, Jun Jie, Yi Feng, Shan Shan, Angela and Litin were there, we played many many many rounds... Sorry guys, but i seem to be off concentration and seems to be using more strength than usual right? sorry la... i was totally not in the mood, but wanted to release some things in a more productive manner, and it seems that i did let out alot, but not helping with my relaxation-.- Sorry Keith, i was already irritated when i was on the MRT, so i accidentally sort of lifted my voice over the phone... sorry...

Oh ya, Jacq, sorry when u called and i was like quite busy as the rest were rushing for time... Before u made the call, i just answered another, so i was like using up the time that they were playing, so i was like in a rush... Sorry, plus i wasnt really paying attention to everything, cause i was quite bothered, ya, sorry la, i not rushing on purpose de... sigh... i really apologize... Cause u said... ok lo, now can play dun want to talk to u liao lo... and i called out ur name jacquelyn, cause they asked who called this time, so i was like... u call de, then i said Jacquelyn... I didn't mean to call ur full name de la... Sorry, the most next time i call u crazy or stupid alien can? hahahaha... Really sorry la...

Soon after we left the place around 715, i went to Serangoon interchange, in fact, i didn't go home immediately... I went over to Braddel Heights C.C the basketball court, played with some of the people there, got some compliments, then i rested alone by the side as i knew none of the people there. So i was like taking a good time to rest a while... at around 9 plus, i left the basketball court, and jogged all the way pass all the HDB buildings, past YangZheng pri, ZhongHua sec, past Wesley's condo, Titus's sch, around the private property, past step's house and finally, all the way home, wearing my uniform and carrying my bag... i felt really happy though... I was like damn tired, texted, Zilin, Ziting, Keith and Yi Feng, and i went to shower... So ya...

It was not long ago, before i was really telling every single little bit of all that has happened, luckily, with Wei Qi, Keith and Litin around, i am able to remain in contact and stay around u guys. If that time, u guys chose not to believe in me, i think u will not even be seeing me now, unless during examination days, or collection of results, if not, i think i would not be talking and smiling to u guys.

Thank u, especially to Wei Qi. I really mean it. Nowadays, i have completely no mood to be playing around and i sincerely apologize to u guys if i start getting vulgar and worked up many times. I might seems different, yes i admit i am, but i promise, what is said, it will be done. U understand what i mean right Wei Qi? i swear. Whatever i told u just now, u better rmb it well, because i swear i will do it.

To the rest... I am fucking hell not in the mood to play too many games once i am angered and let me say this, do not try to provoke me. I may be joking and trying to lame with u guys sometimes, but my mind is seriously awake, and i am giving a warning first. Dun take advantage of it, or dun go overboard, as i am really swearing that i am bloody hell so not in the mood to play around or be messed around. I really take things very seriously now, and i hope u guys can understand wat i mean. Sorry.

~well, it seems like time flies. I guess our O levels will be coming and going soon. I really hope that i can study with the right people now, that make me motivated. Those that are making me feel revolted or giving me hell, Fuck off first. I want to do well. So do not, disturb me.

Goodnight~~~

K went out just now, and i am back from a movie...

This morning i was like damn tired... But then after waking up, i went back to sleep again... Then cheong my geography notes during the afternoon, after my lunch, and i was like damn hardworking at home la... For once...
hahahahaha...
Then afterthat, Zilin texted me and jacq called me to ask whether want to go watch movie together... I was like, ok lo... Then afterthat, i pulled Farhan over as well... hahaha... Sorry farhan^^ then I met up with Jacq first and we went t get the tickets for Sorority Row... Which was NC16... The movie damn sick la... I mean like pervertic... But then throughout the whole movie, i nearly had a permanent stop in my blood flow, and my shoulder was like OW when u dug ur fingernails in-.- hahahahaha... Ok la, dun disturb u... hahaha... But then ok la, the show was alright, Farhan commented that it sucks, cause no story line-.- hahahaha... But then sitting beside Jacq, she was like scared halfway, then sometimes laughing like mad la... hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!! like that-.- hahaha^^

then afterthat sent Jacq home and i left for home soon after^^ Then now blogging lo... Then Shan Shan wants to meet up before sch and have breakfast wor... Then after sch going to her house to study, cause she say want to pu chang me-.- wth??? hahaha!!! K la k la... Thank u la, i know u want me to say that right? hahaha... Thanks for the dinner tmr also!!! hahahahahahahahahahaha^^ Still say i entertain u-.- More like opposite la... hahahaha...

~K la... Not very sure whether it is mock exam or not tmr... so ya... Still gonna attend sch tmr^^ Ya, so goodnight guys^^ hahaha^^

Wow!!! A nice reading for me^^

You have a unique view of life and have been fortunate in finding friends and partners with whom you can share it. Your relationships will be most successful when you also have in your life an interest, goal or project which absorbs both of you equally.

hahaha^^ nice and cool right^^ heheheh...

You'll feel totally drawn to help a friend or maybe a total stranger when they fall down. Build up that karma and take care of their business for them. Remember: what comes around goes around.

See!? i have good karma as well^^ So my friends must also treat me nicely ar^^ hehehehehe!!!

K i had quite a fun day today, as i played basketball for like quite long, and it was with keith, Litin, and Carter in the afternoon^^ So ya, hahaha... But then it drizzled in the afternoon so ya, we rested at the void deck under Wei Qi's block and i listened to music for a while... Blasted the music into my ear, ignoring the text msgs that i have been receiving, as there seems to be too much of it today... so ya... many from Zilin, Wei Qi, and Stupid alien>.< hahaha... Ya, then as the drizzling continued, Litin, keith, carter and i played our little game of basketball to keep ourselves entertained and use our productive energy^^ hahaha... in the end, we were all damn tired, then Litin asked me to help her in her art, some drawing of the playground, ya, i helped draw one portion, then the camera no batt:( sorry i couldnt finish it for u...

then soon after, we left the block as the ground was still wet even thought the rain stopped... then we went to Hougang mall the KOPITIAM to have our dinner^^ hahaha... Enjoyed talking to the 3 of them, and we chatted abt the topic, and they were like agreeing with wat i said, then they even gave lots of comments la... hahaha... Stupid Carter and his library of songs-.- Unstoppable la-.- hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!! Then soon after, we went back to the basketball court at Wei Qi there... We then met up with Wei Qi and we played basketball for quite a while... ya... Then Keith sent Litin home, before coming back to find us at the other court^^

At the other side, woah... Wei Qi, Keith and Carter finally saw wat was agressive play of basketball^^ Hope that u guys were motivated to play even better^^ Ya ya, after the O level, gonna train together with the 3 of them, Yi Feng!!! stop emoing and join us la!!! hahahahahaha^^ I promise u guys, if u wanna acheive something, have trust in me^^ I'll let the 4 or 5 of us shine and improve all the way... We shall together, be our own talented team, people will always remember our names or faces clearly in their minds as the top 5 people that they have ever played with at their court;) YEA^^ hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!! Jia You Jia You!!!

We shall now bring this name, Origin or Fate, to other people's minds... I think Jacq's idea of origin is quite meaningful^^ ya... cause lets see ar... Origin, the meaning behind this word...
Origin- The situation which something begins...
What do u guys think? U see... keith, Wei Qi, Carter and i, we were all not basketball players in the beginning, other than Keith in pri sch... But lets see...

Wei Qi, he just started really playing ball this yr, and has tremendously improved as his physical body is built in such a way that he can actually shine in basketball, but he has many things to be changed and of course learned from the very basics, for example is his shooting, and the way he jumps for rebound. But i have to compliment 1 thing though, his rebounding has been improving, and i hope that it keeps on going this way, so keep it up^^ so thats why, he shall BEGIN after his o levels^^

Keith, he may have played basketball in his primary sch days, but it doesnt mean that he has all the basics. Keith's energy to jump around, makes him a really valuable player in game, plus he is a good team player as well^^ hahahah^^ But his shooting skills and his dribbling skills need a drastic change, as his shooting style doesnt seem to be useful, like Wei Qi, its comfortable, but not the actual shooting position that i want. So ya, all this have to be trained from the start again. Thats another BEGINNING...

Carter, he is fast, his control over the ball and dribbling, i can say that it is fast and good, but the prob lies with his legs and shooting... His legs, i can easily catch him for travelling and everything... as his legs doesnt seem to coordinate very... Ya... I can say some good points abt him^^ Like for example, his ball control is damn fast, his passing is quite accurate as well^^ his flick of the ball when he tries to do center moves are great as well^^ but the thing that u have to improve and change, is ur leg movements, ur shooting, and especially ur vision during a game... U pass well, but u cannot really see where all ur teammates are positioned in the court, based on ur speed and everything, we can easily play other people if u are good, so ya^^ Keep it up man!!! hahahahaha^^

Ok now is yi Feng, u ar... Aiyo... So lazy la u-.- hahahahahahaha!! No la, jokn only... heheheh^^
Ok ok, u have damn freakin stable hands and legs la, plus ur strength is something i cannot deny... ya, u make a good player in the court, and i can definitely see the potential in u if u are not lazy!!! hahahaha!!! DWAEJI!!! hahaha, u need train, specifically with ur lay ups, as i think ur shooting within the inner 1 pt, is already damn good, though it is slow, ur shots, out of 10, i can say that u have around 60 to 70 percent accuracy... For a beginner? Now that is damn good already^^ hahaha... but ya, u have to play with us more often mah, hahahaha... Ok la, after O level, i think i will call u out to play ball with the rest of us everyday, so that u can be much stronger^^

Ya, all these are the data i myself collected from the way u guys play, and i am indeed astonished woth the potential u guys have, but if we wanna be the best, we have to BEGIN, by being small and start off with the basics first^^ That is why, I think Jacq's idea with the name "Origin" is damn meaningful... So i hope u guys will work together with me, not just teammates, but the best of friends^^ Right??? hahahahahahahahahaha^^

~K goodnight guys, i am really happy that i have many many of my friends that are supporting me right now... Wei Qi, Keith, Yi Feng, Carter, Farhan, Shan Shan, Litin, Zilin and jacquelyn. U guys... Thank u... ^^

Labels: I am really really happy that i have my friends around me^^

LOL!? Omg Adrian-.- walao eh... U really dun get my meaning ar... Haiyo... My meaning when i said anything, is because i want u to open up ur mind anymore>.< Not remain ur bloody hell irritating emo self-.- I want u to open up ur mind MORE!!! If not wat is ur mindchamps for-.- OMG... Walao... I was expecting that u might ask whether u can go with me and Wei Qi, but neva mind, since u treat things this way, i cannot comment i guess... Alamak... I really have already forgiven u, cause if i haven't, would i still reply ur texts? or would i agree to go for the zoo and night safari thing? Indeed, the next time we meet, i won't be like my pleasent last time and remain innocent and dumb all the time. In fact, i shall be more weary and maybe a little different... Hmm... I think even Wei Qi and Keith has noticed as well... Ya, i should in fact thank u for letting me unleash the other side of me... Ya, i really forgive u... hahaha... But abt the forgetting part, u have to forgive me ar? hahaha...

Plus i think u still haven't really woke up to ur senses yet have u? U are still like a small kid that plays hide-and-seek-.- We were all hoping that after this so called incident, u will really really change and be a even better bro or friend of ours, but it seems like u are still reluctant, as Shan Shan has said before, our arms are open whenever u are ready, but the prob is, how can u still be like this-.- Ur solitary and emo self is the thing we really find the most irritating-.- So haven't u thought backwards yet? Every single time u have fun with us, since when have we ever left u alone? Wei Qi, Keith, Yi feng and Jun Jie, since when have anyone of us not have any fun with u??? We hate the emo side of u, but we are always ready to accept the open minded Adrian we really know... U urself, have u ever thought of that? Are the memories of having us as friends not enough of u? Or are u still thinking abt ur relationships-.- Are we friends not important to u? We are right? i know u will surely say that we are important, but can u like prove it? From the past 1 and a half month, u have been emoing many many times, and have been creating trouble for us, but i neva expose or wat, in fact when we tried to talk to u like cheer u up or wat, u would smile a while, then emo again-.- wth? Dun worry, once u have thought things through again, talk to us, we will see by then whther u have really changed... anyway, i have to go now, so byebye... Use the memories we had as a reminder to u...

K using laptop at Jacq's house now, gonna blog abt wat happened at home last night... So ya... last night when i reached home, my mum was like finally home after her 3 continuous working days and said that i was finally home ar, then i was like ya, then i just walked into my room without saying hi or how was her work... She wanted to talk to me abt something, but i just completely never go near their room and i went to take my shower and used my laptop before sleeping at 3 plus 4am... Ya... I dunno... I pity my mum, but in order to get things right, this is wat i have to do i suppose... I am already prepared... The moment she starts ranting abt something, i will go all out and throw everything at her already... So ya. I am at the same time, ready to argue with my step father as well... so I better prepare myself... cause it seems like it might start at anytime this week... I havent spoke to my mum for quite some time as well lah... So ya... not sure abt home probs le... ya ya... i not sure la... This kind of things like only i seem to know and experience lei...

1 is this, 1 is friends thingy, and 1 is er Zilin and farhan, u all know ar? so like ya... Including my studies too... All these accumulated together and my brain is abt to explode la!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha... dunno la... Now there are not many people i can really consult in... Sometimes i even tell my maid some things, she understands, as she also see wat happens to me at home... In fact, all my maids that ever worked under us, all understand wat i mean, after they see how my step father treated me... So ya... Sometimes i think that my maids are the most understanding people that i have met la... cause they know how i feel and they wont like say it out... Ya...

Sigh... i would love to have just 1 family that can support me, but i guess i am not blessed to have 1. Past, present and future... My family would not understand and support me i guess... to me, the family i have now is only providing me with a place to rest, but not a place to relax. So ya... i think that i will never have a proper family in my life... father not bothered, and mum is not concerned... Both just loves their new family now... But not me, i dun like the new families now, as it makes me feel left alone... It is true... I have been going out every single day for the past 2 weeks, and reaching home at 11plus or 12 plus at night... Purpose? Because it is only a place for me to sleep... If the public buses are 24 hrs, i doubt i will be home that early. I will not, in fact, never go home that early...

~ya... So if u mind, stop letting me have all this probs... I can't relax... Studies are already giving me probs, now comes all this? Too bad i have nobody supporting me, other than my very own spine and will... What if i dun have them? What will happen? I think nobody will even be able to find me at all... Even moles have their good points as well... Laugh if u want, but moles can really dig holes so that they can hide, but i cant... U guys call me mole or bear or wat... But it seems like i cannot live up to the names... So ya... bye guys... Probably gonna blog again later tonight...

This morning while was sleeping halfway, Litin texted me whether wanted to catch a movie today, in the end, they didnt have enough money, so planned to go bowling instead... I didnt want to stay at home and see my step father's face, so i said ya... Supposed to study today, in the end... Managed a brief 30min of reading the notes on geography... As i went back to sleep, and woke up only at 12 plus in the afternoon... Then after lunch, i blasted the music in my laptop as my parents were not at home... And i am damn happy because they are not home... Then after that, i went out around 415 ba... went straight to Pasir Ris Mrt to wait for Wei Qi, Pei Wen, Keith and Litin to arrive, then we went over to downtown together...

At downtown, after booking the lane for bowling, there was a commotion la... A staff there got beaten up by a whole bunch of guys right in front of the 5 of us, and we were like, stunned... Pei Wen accidentally got hit by 1 of them on the shoulder, and Wei Qi had to massage for her throughout the whole time at the bowling alley... Luckily, the thing didn't really affect us... hahaha...

Then Wei Qi and i played 4 rounds of bowling, and the both of us were like begginers la... My wrist was injured in the end, and Wei Qi that mad guy keep on throwing fast balls-.- going up to 24.7 mph-.- Wtf... Anyway... Learnt a little but on how to bowl and ya... Quite fun la... but basketball is still the best^^ hahahaha^^ then we left at around 6 plus, and i went to have my dinner...

Then after my dinner, i went over to Tampines to wait for Jacq to finish her British council... Then after she came out, went to meet Farhan, Zilin and Ziting at tampines mall... Then we sat at macs a while, and here came Ziting's guy "friend" and we then talked and went over to nearby HDB garden to chat a while... The guy's name was Shawn or Shaun, and he was 19 yrs old... so ya... Then i left at 11 to Tampines interchange... So ya... Reached home at around 12.25am, and showered and everything, Jacq also reached home soon after, and ya, she went to sleep, and here i am... Still using the com... sigh...

~i dunno la... But i think i feel like doing so... But i cannot do so, i am in a dilemma... sigh... anyway... I think i would need my limited friends that i have around me now, especially, Wei Qi, Farhan and Zilin... Only u 3 know wat i mean right? I just hope that i can get the answer really soon... No la... no need soon... But maybe a change for the better??? For the other side... too bad... i guess now everyone knows... I dun wish to quarrel or be angry, but the damage done is really quite far... Not to me... I dun mind forgiving u wat u have done to me, seriously, i am not not not bothered. Keith wants me to forgive u, i can and definitely will... But i will not forget. U did not hurt me or wat. But wat i am really upset is the countless number of times that Jacq was upset because of u. U are afraid of loosing her right? now u know the feelings ar? omg... isnt it a little too late? I never really forgot wat u did to me to be with Jacq, i forgiven u and gave u the chance, but u broke and used up that chance. U broken the promise u made to Zilin, making another chance broken, and the final and most important chance was given to u by Jacq, but again, u used it up. So if i have a grudge with u, can u really blame me? u just love to use this sentence now right? "its my fault, all my fault..." but it really is nobody's fault, u just used up all the chances that u were given, so its noone's fault-.- So ya, the time when i helped Jacq solve the Zilin's prob thingy, was not to help u do u know that? even before u asked, i was already trying my best to patch them up... U know why? i wanted Jacq to be happy... u can ask Zilin... I pleaded her thousands and thousands of times... I had to msg her all the time so that i can try to change her mind and forgive Jacq, finally i did... All this for wat? It is to make her smile and stay happy. But wat did u do? She cried because of u, she became upset because of u. Not once or twice... But many many many times... I can say it out loud that i have forgiven u, but in my heart, i know that i cant fully. Because u hurt someone not only u loved... But someone other people loved and cared for as well. I can only remain beside her to help her, but u were blessed, blessed to be together with her, but u messed it up. She was a sincere, caring and lively person, all these traits that u can find in her, makes me like her the first time i met her, but u were given the chance by her, and u hurt her? Omg... that is why i am really upset... i am upset not because of how u treated me, i can forgive u just like that, but wat i really am concerned, is how Jacquelyn really feels. So ya. thats all. Adrian, i hope that the zoo and night safari thing on wed, we can have fun. I forgive and definitely can forget abt the things u did to me, but whatever u did to Jacq, i'll remember, not in my mind... But, in my heart.
Goodnight...